Current mood:

drained

I made a layout.
And here you have it.. I don't know if all my friends are still here or not, but for now I'vee decided to bed down here. I figured why not.. I forgot my lostjournal username and password anyway. ha.

Haven't been sleeping lately, haven't been doing much of anything.. Well, I did join a transgender support group, and decided once I get a job I'm going to start a three-five year plan to save up for my top surgery, and testosterone is only a hundred bucks for twenty weeks' worth, according to one guy. I met this awesome woman named Renee, too. She's got her life on track and it makes me feel kind of really inferior and intimidated, but she's nice and all. She's the one who suggested the plan, actually. (by the way when I say woman I mean m2f and when I say guy I mean f2m. XD some people got confused before.. dunno why, the pronouns are technically right. Except.. there is one woman there who's both physically and mentally a woman, I think.. either that or she's -really- good.)

My group therapy is going swimmingly, my new therapist is pretty cool, too. He's not like "everything's your fault", but he's not like "here's your pity party", either. He's showing me how to stand up and do for myself and not pity myself or let my mental condition define me. Though it's uncomfortable talking to someone I don't know real well about my problems, at least he's cool about everything. He's the one who introduced me to the transgender support group.

I joined this website job thing that's going to pay me to do.. something.. it's hard to explain I'll get more into it later.. I'm not going to get much but it'll be some nice pocket money. Still looking for work, too. Supposed to do it every day but I'd been slacking. Gotta get back on the horse.

Gonna go now. Try to sleep. *mosies*