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Sasuke Uchiha ([info]vitiated) wrote,
@ 2009-08-10 20:09:00


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Current music:Godsmack - I Fucking Hate You

When you feel like your life is never going to change because it's an impossibility, do you try to accept it and move on? Distract yourself? Find something else to manage the fact it will always be the same? It's only ... what's the word ... theoretical, I want to know. I've read and heard about plenty of people stuck in their life, and the majority of them never get out of it. So I wonder what goes on in their heads. If they just pretend to be content, or really fool themselves. Or if they just accept that this is their fate and that they have to endure.

I like that word. Endure. English isn't the most elegant language, but it has some good words.

Mr. Senju, I want to come in and stay at the Angel's Hell for as long as I'm allowed. I know I'm not scheduled straight through the weeks like that, but I'd prefer it at the moment.



This place is too big. Too quiet. Even my room ... this bed, all to myself. I don't want it. I don't want anything to do with it.

I hate him. I hate them both. How could he just toss me away like that? Like nothing. That bastard. That fucking bastard. I would kill him if I knew where he was. I don't care anymore what that would mean.

And as for my blessed uncle ... he wants me to work, so I'll fucking work.

((OOC: If anyone's wondering wtf is up with Sasuke, just refer to this.))



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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 08:15 pm UTC (link)
It's complicated. There's reasons why I haven't tried.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 08:18 pm UTC (link)
You're scared. Everything else is just excuses.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 08:22 pm UTC (link)
It's not fear, it's practicality. Sometimes there isn't a move for you to make. Checkmate.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 08:26 pm UTC (link)
There is always a move to make. In chess there is only two conflicting sides.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 08:34 pm UTC (link)
You need a certain amount of freedom to make any move. If you don't have any freedom, the options narrow quickly.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 08:36 pm UTC (link)
Life is not a chess game. You're too scared to make your own freedom. Stop making excuses.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 09:10 pm UTC (link)
It's easy to lecture when you know nothing of the situation.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 09:37 pm UTC (link)
Because clearly the world is out to get you and ruin every possible chance of freedom. Please. You're making yourself look worse with every word.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 09:42 pm UTC (link)
And judging me without knowing a thing about me makes you look like an ignorant asshole.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 09:45 pm UTC (link)
At least I'm aware of it. How badly do you want this freedom?

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 09:48 pm UTC (link)
Why?

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 09:49 pm UTC (link)
Because I'm not just an ignorant asshole.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 10:15 pm UTC (link)
Badly enough.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 10:16 pm UTC (link)
Would you like to explain then?

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 10:18 pm UTC (link)
Not really. Definitely not to someone I don't know. As helpful as I'm sure you'd be, it's not in my best interests.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 10:22 pm UTC (link)
Then you don't want it bad enough. This is why change is impossible for you.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 10:30 pm UTC (link)
It's self-protection. I doubt you would give away your secrets, either.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 10:34 pm UTC (link)
I don't need to. I take care of myself.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 10:51 pm UTC (link)
So have I. For a long time now. I've done what I've had to for many years.

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 10:52 pm UTC (link)
Yet you sound miserable. And I am enjoying myself.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 11:03 pm UTC (link)
You enjoy other people's misery?

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[info]notyourfantasy
2009-08-12 11:10 pm UTC (link)
At times. If you decide to stop being afraid, contact me. I'll get you what you want.

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[info]vitiated
2009-08-12 11:11 pm UTC (link)
Hn.

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