006; So stressed out. @ 10:11 pm

Current Mood: stressed

Tags: easter, gabe, pregnant, stress, work

I am so stressed out right now, I don't even know what to do with myself right now. This is one of the times in my life that I really wish I had a close female friend that lived nearby, because I just really need someone to watch sappy movies with and eat ice cream, and cry.

I haven't been on the pill for the past month or so, because I didn't have a job at the beginning of the month, so I couldn't afford it. Gabe and I had unprotected sex at the beginning of the month (Dan and I used to do it all the time, and it was fine). When he came home last weekend (I was expecting my period around then) I told him that we should use a condom to be safe, and we did... but my period still hasn't come. I last had it January 28th-February 1st... so I was really expecting it like, 2 weeks ago and it's still not here. I've never been regular, so I normally wouldn't be way too concerned, but I've been feeling really nauseous the past few days, and my breasts are tender. I'm just so nervous. I need to pee on a stick, but I don't want to do it alone. I need a friend. /: And I know I'm probably overthinking it, because I have in the past, I just hope that it's not what I think it is.

I also have so much homework to do this week, AND I'm working thirty hours, AND my room is a mess. I have so much to do. I'm so stressed, and I have no motivation to do it, instead I'm on here, or doing my own thing rather than doing something productive. Gabe comes home this weekend, and I'm so glad. <3 But I promised that my fucking room would be clean by the time he gets here. Bah.

And lastly, I'm really upset that I have to work on Easter. I didn't figure that we'd even be open, so I didn't ask for the day off, but we are open, and I am working, which means, I have to miss church, and I don't get to go down to my grandmother's and celebrate with the family. I'm heartbroken. /: I hate this week.

Sorry I'm complaining so much, I just really don't have many positive things to say right now.