| [Coughing up feelings just for you...] |
[Sep. 21st, 2016|08:36 pm] |
When all of your wishes are granted... many of your dreams will be destroyed. |
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[Mar. 26th, 2016|08:30 pm] |
ā, ē, ī, ō, ū
I started typing this with Hepburn but copy-pasting the long vowels is obnoxious. I'm going to just type it straight now for the sake of time and sanity. (ex: Dō = dou)
Hon gēmu wa ōtosēbu ni taiou shite imasu. ōtosēbu kinou o ON ni settei shimasu ka? *Settei wa ato kara "opushon" menyuu de henkou suru koto ga dekimasu.* Raibuedittomōdo wa ōtosēbu ni taiou shite imasen.
-This game is compatible with auto-save. Do you want to set the auto-save feature to ON? *settings can be changed in the "Options" menu later. * Live Edit MOde does not support auto-save.
-Yes -No
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Hatsunemiku orijinaru watashi no yobikake ni kotaete kurete arigatougozaimasu.
-Thank you for hearing my call. I am the Original Hatsune Miku.
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Koko wa anata ga kidou shite kureta gēmu no naka no sekai desu.
-This is where the game tells me to start.
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Kono sekai no "utau sonzai" desu.
-I, Hatsune Miku, am the "singing presence" of this world.
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Watashi-tachi ga utau koto de sekai wa seichou shi.
-The World in which we sing is growing.
kagayaki de mitasa reta kuukan ni naru n desu.
-and as we sing, the world becomes filled with shine space.
(These two seem to kinda mean as we sing in this world, we grow shine and make space filled with brilliance.)
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Hitori de utau koto ga dekimasen.
-You cannot sing alone. (We will not be able to sing alone.)
Utawa sete kureru dareka ga shite hajimete utau koto ga dekiru n desu.
(this came out to be "I can sing for the first time with the "make me sing someone else"?) Assuming this is like the "I can sing with your help" type of message.
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Zutto... sutto matte imashita. Watashi o utawa sete kureru hito o?
-But, but had someone been waiting to sing with me?
Wakatta komaru.
-I was worried.
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Onegaishimasu! Dou ka watashi o utawa sete kudasai!
-Please! Can you show me how to sing?
**CHOICE**
Wakatta (All right!)
Komaru (It's a bother.)
(I chose the first one)
Sugoku ureshiidesu!
-I'm really happy!
Kore de, uta o utau koto ga dekimasu! Sekai o kagayaka seru koto ga dekimasu!
-Now you can sing it! You can brighten the world!
Issho ni saikou no mirai o mezashimashou.
-Try to make the best future together with me.
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Kono sekai no itsutsu no erementoeria...
-There are 5 elements in this world.
Kyuuto, kuuru, byuuti, kaosu, nyuutoraru yuutora.
-Cute, Cool, Beauty, Chaos and Neutral.
(She'll show you a neutral container with a little empty from the top)
Watashi-tachi ga utaenakatta koto de, kagayaki o ushinaitsutsu arimasu?
-Did we lose the shine from not singing? (Are we losing shine by not singing)
Demo, eremento eria no naka de uta o utai, kagayaki no ka "botuteeji" o tameru koto de...
You will store the brilliance of songs called voltage in the element area.
Dondon utatte, boruteeji o tamete ikimashou!
-Fast, let's accumulate voltage!
Saa, ikimasu yo. Uta o utau junbi wa iidesu ka?
Come on, let's go. Are you ready to sing the song well?
**CHOICE**
Junbi wa dekite iru. (I've prepared)
Utaikata o oshiete hoshii. (I want you to tell me how to sing)
(I chose the second one)
If you choose the second option, you will load into the Ievan Polkka (Eva's Polka) Tutorial.
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Renshuu wa itsu demo dekimasukara nanika ni komattara yatte mide kudasai.
-If you have trouble with something, you can redo this, so please try it.
(It will show you the Options Menu with the fourth option highlighted and a box pops up.)
Opushonmenyuu chuuutoriaru wa houmumenyuu "opushon" no deki "rizumugeimu chuutoriaru" kara itsu demo asobu koto ga dekimasu.
-You can play the tutorial at any time from the "Options" menu and choose "rhythm game tutorial".
(A yellow frame textbox pops up here)
-Miku!
(Miku) Rin! and Len!
(Miku): Shoukai shimasu ne. Kono ko-tachi wa Kagamine Rin to Kagamine Ren.
-Introducing the twins Rin and Len Kagamine.
(Miku): Futari tomo, watashi to onaji kono sekai no "utau sonzai" desu.
-These two exist to sing with me in this world.
(Rin): Hajimemashite. Watashi-tachi no sekai e youkoso!
-Nice to meet you. Welcome to our world!
(Len): Anata ni aete ureshii yo. Korekara yoroshiku na.
-I'm glad to meet you. My regards.
(Miku): Demo... futari tomo kyuu ni dou shita no?
But... why did both of you come so suddenly? |
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[Mar. 13th, 2016|06:44 pm] |
Why did you have to steal my heart...?
Taking it from Wonder with her tiny hands covered in splinters.
Taking my mind from white walls sick with age.
I am not a tornado anymore. I am simply a downward spiral.
In the beginning you were happy and I was afraid. I had too much to lose. I had invested too much of my time in tits and confused sexual preference. I did the math. 8 years of my life with a sprite of a girl and I didn't expect a man to sweep me off my feet.
In the beginning I was fire-tongued and spitting venom. I felt the need to test you and it wasn't fair. I pushed limits and a while later realized my feelings for you were starting to cement and my feelings for her were starting to crumble.
I am not the type to believe everyone deserves love. I am more than flawed. I am a self-deprecating monster who doesn't believe anyone will ever love me and mean it.
You've said slews of I love yous. I think you did mean it, but there is no more conviction. I know the catalyst was sparked in my hands. I push things too far. I sabotage. I said and did things I wish I could take back. I really wish I could with my whole heart.
I don't want to regret getting to know you in this way, but I'd be a liar if the thought didn't cross my mind. Now when things seem to be more bad than good, I am kicking myself for not remaining a stoic lesbian.
When I fell in love with you, I wanted to better myself. I wanted to tell you my flaws and hesitations and hoped to be welcomed with support, praised for bravery and to have things bring us closer together.
Too little too late, I suppose.
Now that I'm ready, you're not. You pulled away and had wandering eyes. These are the two worst things for someone like me- someone who already feels as though they can't be safe in love.
I still hurt from what you did, but I have gone against my nature and actually forgave. I forgave you with my whole heart. I also feel like a goddamned idiot for doing so.
Since then, things haven't been the same. I have stopped my mega-fits-of-rage, the crucible I put you through. The crucible I still regret. I'm not asking for a pat on the back. I'm just asking that for once you acknowledge the willingness and effort I'm putting in to try to make this work.
I still mean it when I say that I re-evaluate and try to act and say things from a place of "I want him to be happy." This mantra has kept me from saying or doing hurtful things. I think this was lost somewhere in your psyche, which is natural for someone who's been hurt.
I need to know, can you commit to loving me fully? Can you love me as an equal and not some retarded, juvenile or badly damaged shell of a girl? Can I have your respect? Can you see me from a place that isn't tarnished with the weight of the past? Or is it all too late?
I'm not telling you to trust me completely if it is too hard, but I need your faith. I need your support. I need your respect. More than anything I need you to act towards me from a place of love.
It has hurt me so much lately- hearing every insult under the sun and the terrible things you think of me. I won't even ask if you think they're true. I know you are cut-and-dry blunt. I am disgusted in myself for not only coming across in such unfavorable ways but for staying in a relationship where someone is burdened by the weight of such a tumultuous past.
I used to start fights over nothing. I feel like now you're doing the same- never really dealing with the frustrations of dealing with me or our past.
Please don't relive my mistakes. Please let us have love.
I am here to support you. I am here to forgive. I am here and finally ready to be the person that you want, but it's not easy for me and I am afraid. Give me now what you gave me at the start and I promise you my loyalty, my passion and my whole heart. (Oh hey, that rhymes!) |
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| [Who put this floor here?] |
[Jan. 3rd, 2015|09:21 pm] |
*rolls out from under sofa*
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| Oh... hey. |
[Oct. 13th, 2011|05:04 am] |
Long time no see.
Back, and better than ever. F'rea;/
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| becoming 4 |
[Mar. 31st, 2009|01:43 am] |
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Took three days for them to die. The born again by the serial rights. Lamb of God have mercy on us. Lamb of God will you grant us... (?) |
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[Mar. 31st, 2009|02:55 am] |
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Sunlight is everywhere. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2009|02:11 am] |
This is me high with cats. xD
Way saucer way way! If you haven't watched the anime "DragonHalf" yet, go do it NOW. NAOWWWWW I TELL YOU.
( sickkkkkk ) |
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| Rah, rah, rah rah rah. RAH. |
[Mar. 12th, 2009|12:39 am] |
Ugh, I've been sick as a dog and I just started antibiotics. Grrr. I'm allergic to almost every antibiotic on the market. The only one I don't practically die from gives me god-awful stomach pains and I usually get sick from it.
Bawwwww.
This Saturday (Caturday!) I'm doing a shoot in Brooklyn (finally) for the first time in forever and I'm super nervous and dying inside because I'm always afraid I'll not live up to my photographer's expectations. It's like, a huge deal for me. I'm bugging out sadfajsfakjsfalskjf. FUCK. Ugh god damn mother fucking shit. I've got a mouth like a sailor when I'm bugging out.... ugh, I can't believe I'm in such a mood. [...] .
I'm scared. :(
So, like the title of this post, rah rah x whatever I'm not sure if I can go through with this. I might chicken out. I just dyed my hair for it... ughhhhhhh idk idk idk I'm freaking out.
I don't like freaking out. I don't do it often. I need a cigarette. God damn.
Mehhhhhhhhhhhh ehh eh eh eh hhhhhhhffffmph.
That's all I have to say.
Send me quaaludes. Now. Plz. ~.~ |
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[Mar. 5th, 2009|01:55 am] |
Soooo I got called back to an NYC casting of ANTM Cycle 13. xD
I think they're calling it "America's Next Top Shortee" since it's for girls 5'3-5'7''. How funny!
I'll keep you posted on how I do. Now I'm SO glad I didn't do A Shot At Love III! |
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[Mar. 1st, 2009|11:40 pm] |
Last night was magical. MAGICAL. Way saucer way way pictures and updates and all of that later, but for now I need to sleep, god willing.
Did I say magical? Yeah? Just checkin'.
♥ x1000! |
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| bawwww |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|03:46 am] |
Dear ![[info]](https://www.scribbld.com/img/userinfo.gif) hitler, I'm updating this for you because I love you.
I haven't had much to write about as of late. I'm jobless and a lush, and it's borderline tragic.
I'm promoting for a party at the end of the month... and it's going to be fuckery at it's best. 2012... Children of the Bunker. I'm psyched. More UV bodypaint models. More copious amounts of things I shouldn't take. *hehe*
*gigglesnort*
I promise I'll make a better update later. I promise. I promise. :D
Maybe pictures of my new haircut?!
Here's one.
( boom ) |
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| oh hai tank(ed) girl what's shakin'? |
[Jan. 4th, 2009|01:55 am] |
~Drunk. Again. Yay! I'm listening to Fatboy Slim. C'yeah. Good times.
Beth is officially mildly addicted to videogames and i'm so thrilled. Animal Crossing City Folk and Spore officially keep her awake. Cheers!
Rum and coke. I'm a pirate. *^_^*
Time to eat some chocolate and jam out. Sorry for a lame update. Hope you're all having silly Saturday time like I am.
Love you all. ♥
If you drink, take a shot for me comrades! Here's to an epic new year!
ps- Have any of you ever seen "DragonHalf?" It's HILARIOUS. Watch it... especially all my otaku munchkins out there. *^_^*
Anywho, after much drunken prattling that I just deleted, I'll see you kiddos in the AM. G'night. :P |
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| A few of my favorite things... |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|05:10 pm] |
If you want to hear some of my favorite music of all time, click on "Pop Out Player" below. There's a little something for everyone.
( 65 tracks and a little about what they are and why I chose them. )
Tell me what you think! Tell me what you like and dislike. You can add songs you like to your own player, and if you make a playlist please share it with me! |
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| hahaha |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|03:31 am] |
Do you know how many times I try to log in under "tanggirl"? xD
I've been trying to watch the end of 'Pulp Fiction' forever. I got it on PSP. It skipped. I got it from Blockbuster. It skipped. I got it from effing Netflix- and it's skipping. Fuck. Don't spoil it for me or else! x(
Recently i've met with some trouble. My girlfriend (Beth) has some sleeping issue similar to narcolepsy. I think she's just depressed. In the meantime, i've been drinking whiskey while awake and now I'm blogging. Huzzah!
Goddamnit... drunken prattling again. Oh woe is me.
Anywho, it seems as though this journal is all drugs and drunken mumbles, but I swear it's not. It's just a shame that I'm only left alone at a computer under such circumstances. Boo.
Things will get better.
♥
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| bass keep pumpin' jumpin' yeah |
[Dec. 16th, 2008|08:37 am] |
Mmmm. No sleep again. :)
I just smoked quite a bit of weed and made Beefaroni for breakfast. (I was originally going to make ramen. I had everything ready and all laid out and decided that 45 seconds beats 3 minutes so I opted for the quicker of the two lol.) I'm so gross. xD I also watched a REALLY old episode of Sailor Moon online and it was grand.
Beth's at work. Blahhhhh it's so slushy and cold outside I wish she could just stay in bed and we could roll around under the covers all day or something. It would be lovely.
I have the Brooklyn Bounce stuck in my head. If you know who Brooklyn Bounce is, you're amazing. I need to go out this weekend- hear some techno and effing dance it up. I also need to get Alex's turntables so I can make a new demo. I miss new funky beats. I need to get creative again. Anywho, time for a cigarette and I'm going to attempt sleep (which usually means play pokemon for the next three hours). Ja! ^.^ |
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[Nov. 21st, 2008|09:58 am] |
Boo. Too much adderall. Too much vicodin. Too little sleep. ~.~
I need to get my body on a regular sleep schedule. Recently- I'm awake until 7 am and go to sleep until 4 pm. That's just shitty. I keep trying to go to sleep now (it's going on 10 am) and it's just not working for me. Ugh.
I'm going to go make some tea maybe. Idfk. Sorry for such a boring update. xD |
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| whoo! |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|02:19 am] |
WIN! *^_____^* |
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| not work safe, kiddos. |
[Nov. 4th, 2008|09:55 am] |
Any of you who are 18+, please don't forget to vote today!
What were you for Halloween? I had to DJ that night, then I had to hop to a different club because I was on a team of girls who were live UV decor. It was a total blast!
( I got to be a UV Zombie for Halloween (NSFW/NWS!) [+20] ) |
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[Oct. 30th, 2008|03:02 pm] |
Guess who this is?
Oh hai, it's me.
I thought it might be fun if I had everybody make dolls of themselves... then I would make an entry and link all my friends' journals from the dolls they made.
Make one and post it as a comment if you want to be added! |
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