Peter believes that I do not love him anymore because he's been very neglectful of me, making very little time for me and spending a lot of time at work and dealing with his family. I do feel neglected and his constant issues are making me wonder if it's because he depressed because I'm not around or something else?

When he's depressed, I'm depressed but I have to pretend to not be. I feel a little numb when it comes to our situation and I feel more distant than I did because every time I get close to him he throws shit in my face and acts like there isn't more than one line of reasoning. He makes me not want to get any closer to him, I feel like I should be a little more guarded too, I find myself having trouble speaking my mind often because it always turns out badly. I try to love and encourage him but he finds fault in whatever I say recently.

I wonder if he loves me at all anymore, or if he's just feeling desperate to have the feeling of love.

I think he wants to be rid of me, but he's too attached and is unable to. He always talks about breaking up because it's the only way he knows to fix things, for someone who is logical, he never thinks rationally, ever.

It looks like the whole little talk with his boss didn't really do much in the long run.

I think he'd be happier without me around.

We'll see after he starts back on his meds.

Peter is driving me insane lately he doesn't know what the hell is wrong with him.

His loneliness is getting to me because it makes me not want to bother him because he's always hostile unless he's sleeping.

I hate when my boyfriend plays a video game for hours and hours and then not only surpasses me, but makes me feel like shit when I turn off the game and want to have some attention.

I'm so jealous that it's ridiculous.

fuck hp rp. everyone sucks.

So, I found something really amusing. I saw a Bebo HP RPG. I saw a Merope Gaunt there, so I went to check it out. MANY..MANY LAWLS..has been had. Below the cut are the funniest ones.

( lawl )

Zero132132 [6:37 A.M.]: Why is the alphabet in that order?
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: huh
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: what order
Zero132132 [6:37 A.M.]: ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: because maybe the abc song doesn't sound good any other way?
Zero132132 [6:37 A.M.]: Lol.
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: lol
Zero132132 [6:37 A.M.]: So it comes down to that fucking song?
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: yep
kitphiros [6:37 A.M.]: QERFPAM

kitphiros [6:38 A.M.]: doesn't sound good in the song
kitphiros [6:38 A.M.]: lol
Zero132132 [6:39 A.M.]: Only because you're use to the song as it is.
kitphiros [6:39 A.M.]: because the songs been around since time began.
kitphiros [6:39 A.M.]: lol
kitphiros [6:39 A.M.]: the big bang happened
kitphiros [6:40 A.M.]: and you know what god did on the 7th day?
kitphiros [6:40 A.M.]: he made the abc song.
Zero132132 [6:40 A.M.]: Lol.

Bitches.

my journal layout rocks so hard.

I don't know how many of you are open to new games on IJ but I'm running a game that mixes alot of HP stuff. Anyone on my friends list is welcome to join :]! I hope you decide to take a look and join ^_^'

http://houseofgaunt.insanejournal.com/info

I'm trying to make icons from one movie and the other is a tv show.

I can't seem to make them not look either grainy or too weird when brightened. Could anyone give me advice?

Here is all I know how to do in Adobe.

Match Color
Levels
Variations
Soft Light
Screen
Overlay
Seletcive Color


Below the cut is the images that have been particularly difficult for me.

( pic help plz? )

god scribbld.net stop being down all the time, it sucks.

My neck hurts from this goddamn flu, plz leave me.