There are other fish in the sea but you will always be my Nemo
It's been a fun weekend. I needed it as I haven't gone out much lately. Friday night, Kristen, Micah and I went to Friday's and hung out there. I can't say though that after the times hanging out with Micah since I've met him...that I know anything about him beyond his facebook profile and the generalities. It sort of irks me not having a better understanding of someone...not that I've dug that hard but he won't talk about himself either. Oh well.
Sunday I finally got a correct measuring for a bra size [hello 34DDD] and got 3 bras at Nordstroms Rack for $50 which was exciting. Sunday night Jon [the boyfriend] drove down from his brother's house in Port Deposit and spent the night with me :o) I realize that I spent half of March with him...which is the longest we've gone actually being able to see each other but nonetheless still awesome to be able to spend time with him. Despite all my doubts about us, there has been no one like him that can quite make me smile like he does. Sometimes I feel like my cheeks hurt because I can't stop smiling...I wish it would stay like that always and not have the doubts. I don't think my mind works that way though. Sigh.
Work has been decent. My kids today I feel were bouncing off the walls. I think it's due to the fact that we've had like one snow day this past winter...and it's been awhile since we've had days off school. I think after Spring Break things will be calmer with them. I hope. Rachel and I have been getting along better. I don't feel so much these days that it's me against them in the classroom which is what I've been feeling like for a long time. I still feel a bit like I'm walking on eggshells, afraid of making one mistake. I don't want to give them anything to talk about me. I'm glad I talked to Sharon about the 2nd graders though. It's been bothering me working in the classroom during Hebrew and seeing such a wide range with kids either being really behind, kids on level, and kids who are absolutely fluent already. The ones who are fluent are bored out of their minds and the ones who struggle act up in class because they don't understand. She agrees with me that I should be able to do pullouts with these kids while Gil teaches the rest of the class. She said she'll include me in the meetings about enrichment for 2nd grade so I'm excited.
I've been thinking a lot about work for next year if I don't get into grad school - huge possibility. I really think I just want to be a teacher. I realized yesterday and today through two different conversations that most of the teachers who work at the school do not have a Master's or have a Master's in an unrelated field. Many of them started as I have as a Teacher's Assistant. Even Robin who's the special-ed/think tank person doesn't have a master's. So I don't understand Naomi's argument against me being a teacher just because my BA is in Psychology when I have the experience working with Kyle, working as a sub, working in the pre-k, and 2nd grade. I think I'm going to see if I stay there either a.) do a lot of pull outs and work one on one with kids b.) be a 5th grade teacher c.) K/1/2 teacher. I just don't want to go back to my own position next year. So wish me luck!
Sunday I finally got a correct measuring for a bra size [hello 34DDD] and got 3 bras at Nordstroms Rack for $50 which was exciting. Sunday night Jon [the boyfriend] drove down from his brother's house in Port Deposit and spent the night with me :o) I realize that I spent half of March with him...which is the longest we've gone actually being able to see each other but nonetheless still awesome to be able to spend time with him. Despite all my doubts about us, there has been no one like him that can quite make me smile like he does. Sometimes I feel like my cheeks hurt because I can't stop smiling...I wish it would stay like that always and not have the doubts. I don't think my mind works that way though. Sigh.
Work has been decent. My kids today I feel were bouncing off the walls. I think it's due to the fact that we've had like one snow day this past winter...and it's been awhile since we've had days off school. I think after Spring Break things will be calmer with them. I hope. Rachel and I have been getting along better. I don't feel so much these days that it's me against them in the classroom which is what I've been feeling like for a long time. I still feel a bit like I'm walking on eggshells, afraid of making one mistake. I don't want to give them anything to talk about me. I'm glad I talked to Sharon about the 2nd graders though. It's been bothering me working in the classroom during Hebrew and seeing such a wide range with kids either being really behind, kids on level, and kids who are absolutely fluent already. The ones who are fluent are bored out of their minds and the ones who struggle act up in class because they don't understand. She agrees with me that I should be able to do pullouts with these kids while Gil teaches the rest of the class. She said she'll include me in the meetings about enrichment for 2nd grade so I'm excited.
I've been thinking a lot about work for next year if I don't get into grad school - huge possibility. I really think I just want to be a teacher. I realized yesterday and today through two different conversations that most of the teachers who work at the school do not have a Master's or have a Master's in an unrelated field. Many of them started as I have as a Teacher's Assistant. Even Robin who's the special-ed/think tank person doesn't have a master's. So I don't understand Naomi's argument against me being a teacher just because my BA is in Psychology when I have the experience working with Kyle, working as a sub, working in the pre-k, and 2nd grade. I think I'm going to see if I stay there either a.) do a lot of pull outs and work one on one with kids b.) be a 5th grade teacher c.) K/1/2 teacher. I just don't want to go back to my own position next year. So wish me luck!