Date:	2008-01-19 23:36
Subject:	Sad Panda
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	Yellowcard - Lights and Sound

I just don't know what to do. Do I wait things out or sit Ben down and tell him how I'm feeling? I'm so happy when I'm with him but miserable when I'm not. I know some of his actions are never gonna change so I don't even try to change them but they upset me somewhat. Am I lying to myself when I say that its just a very different type of relationship than I had with Anthony? No. But am I kidding myself that it will get better? Probably. Or maybe its just me. I've never really been good with adjusting to change. I'm used to having all of a boy's attention devoted to me and its definitely not like that with Ben. He has his brothers and other friends. I don't. Do I break up with him and just be single for a while or keep dating and see where it goes? I'm so confused right now.