Konan (order) wrote,
@ 2010-06-15 00:15:00

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[waiting to be picked up outside her apartment, saving Hashirama the trouble of walking up five flights of stairs to her door since there's no elevator here. is wearing a simple little black dress, hugging her arms close and holding onto her clutch purse, feeling out of place looking so nice while people walk around so casually. isn't used to going on dates like this, but has been getting used to it, and of course has a mission tonight but that can wait... is looking forward to these little dates.]

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codefive
2010-06-28 02:16 pm UTC (link)

Of course it is. All memories are special and unique and this one is a part of you. [but for his... well.] As long as you promise not to laugh. My first love was a crush on my grade six science teacher. I thought she was an amazing woman and a hot body of course which every hormonal student wants. On the way to school, I picked her some flowers from my mother's garden bed and took this bouquet in for her and confessed how I felt. Of course, it was shot down that fast but I was glad she didn't do it in the front of the class.

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	order 2010-06-28 02:19 pm UTC (link)
	A teacher? [smiles, giving him a playful nudge.] Was she married? I don't know how I could let a kid down easily for something like that. You didn't cry about it, did you? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-28 02:27 pm UTC (link)
	She wasn't at least, and she was relatively new to teachings so she was still fairly young. I did cry but not in front of her. I knew that it wouldn't be allowed somewhere in the back of my mind but at that age, it felt like it could be something. Most people have a crush on their school teacher at some point, I was just lucky I got the nice one. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-28 02:34 pm UTC (link)
	Did you fall for any other teachers? You seem like the type. So you want a teacher, and I want a hero. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-28 02:40 pm UTC (link)
	Grade ten health studies. That was a lot to do with teenage hormones and she was a good source of... many fantasies. [chuckles and looks away. bad, bad. shouldn't be saying this like that around lady company.] But you are right. A teacher type would be someone I am definitely after, and I can certainly be your hero. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-28 10:15 pm UTC (link)
	You can be my hero? The traditional kind? Like if someone is mugging me in a dark alley, you'll swoop in and save me? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 12:45 am UTC (link)
	I don't have a white horse to ride off into the sunset with, but I can carry you away from it. ... If you let me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-29 12:50 am UTC (link)
	You've got to earn the right to carry me. But I think in time, I might let you. But if you fail to be my hero, I'll be the one who carries you out. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 01:05 am UTC (link)
	Ohh, that is a low blow. Being carried out, the reverse, if anyone sees that, it will be a long running joke. [would make a joke about yeah right, you are too tiny to carry someone like him out but maybe not. she probably could.] How about my first rescue, it will be walking by your side and making sure you are okay. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-29 01:11 am UTC (link)
	That will work... what do you plan on saving me from first? Insects? Bullies? Or something like... a cold chill? Loneliness? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 01:18 am UTC (link)
	Cold chill would be first. [puts arm around and rubs.] If it was more in the day, it would be bees. Loneliness will work up to gradually, as fast or slow as you want it. But that is my main priority. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

order
2010-06-29 02:19 am UTC (link)

Your main priority is curing me from loneliness... we hardly know one another. It feels unreal, to hear something you'd expect to hear from a lover of years and years. But from someone I just met... You seem sincere, and I feel like I can trust you. It's just... so unexpected. [so is the fact that the call she got was about how she placed the bugs in Hashirama's apartment all wrong, and none of them work. has to yet again deceive this man and work her way into his home again, to invade his privacy, get closer to him... and end up breaking his heart, when according to the plan she has to leave him.]

But I do feel comfortable... so if you want to be my hero tonight... I wouldn't mind sleeping in your bed in my underwear again.

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codefive
2010-06-29 02:40 am UTC (link)

You were sad before. You always sound so lost and distant. I don't want to cure your loneliness as a lover straight away but I do as a friend. I want to be your friend as well as the possibilities of something more if you will allow it. You don't have to be with someone to remove loneliness. Even when you are in a relationship, you can still feel empty. It would be an honor to have you stay the night.

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	order 2010-06-29 02:48 am UTC (link)
	I sound lost? [supposes that's true, isn't some Hollywood star, and is sure her compassion shows through, at least when Hashirama is concerned.] ... Don't think I'm throwing myself at you to be a lover. Do you think I'm easy...? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Not at all. If you were, we would have had sex that night. [doesn't remember having it... probably was too drunk and couldn't even get erect that night.] I'm not looking to rush into anything, I would like it slow. I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable as well. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

order
2010-06-29 03:17 am UTC (link)

Then do I really sound sad and lost? ... I didn't know. Maybe I am sad... is it sad to only watch the lives of others, while my own passes by? I've never felt unfulfilled. [always had someone to love, but recently has felt more like a part of his strategy, not heart.] Maybe I just want to be held. I didn't intend to make you think I was rushing into intimacy. [though it would be easier that way, wouldn't it.]

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	codefive 2010-06-29 03:44 am UTC (link)
	No one wants to continue to watch the world pass by, they want to be part of it as well. Seeing others around you in love, happy, you can only look on for so long before it affects you too. There is nothing wrong with that. You deserve to be happy and have those feelings in return. Don't be an observer forever, take part in it as well. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-29 04:12 am UTC (link)
	What about you? If I remember, you were alone in the bar, too. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 04:23 am UTC (link)
	I don't want to be alone... but I don't want to make someone feel alone either. Once I am able to finish what keeps me away for most of the nights, I want to be able to devote myself to someone as much as possible but I can't right now. I need closure on this case first. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

order
2010-06-29 04:40 am UTC (link)

... [shifts to stand in front of him, cupping his cheeks and looking up at him, almost searchingly. isn't sure what she's looking for, but just wants to see something there.] ... [can tell he's talking about finding Madara, and is pretty sure Madara would be pleased to hear Hashirama is putting his life on hold, all for him. leans up, pressing a soft kiss to his lips, having to get on her tip-toes to reach.] You can't let it control your entire life... do what you can, when you can, but don't let it define you. The line between passion and obsession is thin, but once it's obsession... you only hurt yourself. I don't want to see you hurt.

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codefive
2010-06-29 04:53 am UTC (link)

I've gone too far now to just back off. No one knows him the way that I do. He has this game of cat and mouse built up and if I pull back, no one else is able to handle that. It has to be me or... [stops when he hears himself speaking. whoa... that really is... is it passion or obsession? Madara has an obsession with him for his own reason, he killed his brother after all and he wanted to get revenge for it... but in return, he was giving him the same.] ... You're right. I should... reconsider it.

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	order 2010-06-29 05:07 am UTC (link)
	You don't have to give it up, but... do think about it. If it's worth losing your life over. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 05:12 am UTC (link)
	A lot has happened already... people I love have already been targeted. My life is not what they are after, they are after the ones close to me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	order 2010-06-29 05:24 am UTC (link)
	[rubs thumbs over his cheeks, able to feel the tension and stress in his cheeks. how could Madara do this to someone so kind?] ... I don't know the full story on this, I want to be able to help. Whatever you're trapped in... I'm sorry it's hurting you so much. If someone is after your loved ones then that's... unacceptable. Nobody deserves that. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	codefive 2010-06-29 05:37 am UTC (link)
	I made some mistakes, a lot of them and this is my repercussion. It was something I did, I want them to come after me. I am worried... about you too. What if he finds out and comes after you. I'm being selfish, wanting to be close to someone when your life potentially can be at risk. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)