When you're broken, in a million little pieces

Last week, we went and applied for food stamps (along with put DH on the medical card). Today, I received something in the mail - I have to fill out a new form or lose the medical card. I have no idea what I did wrong, except talk to someone other than my caseworker. I'm bugging out like you have no idea, they have me down as being pregnant with the baby to be born September of 2007, and that our monthly income is 0. ?_? I have no idea what's going on.

I know this past month we've literally been living on whatever scraps we can get, but I know I didn't put down that we have 0 income. We just need a little extra to make it until the overtime picks up at work. That is literally our food budget. DH's income tax is going to pay off one of our loans (we're at 3,000 out of 5,500) and then we'll be good with or w/o the extra help. But ugh...

I'm stressing out because I'm so afraid we're losing the medical card - we can't afford anything w/o it. And I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. DH had gotten a slight raise since last we were out there, but 20 cents an hour doesn't really make that much of a difference. I called DHS and left a message hopefully someone'll get back to me soon. If not, I'm afraid we're losing our only lifeline right now. DH has no insurance (which is why we went to put him on there).

I'm sitting here actually shaking I'm so freaking nervous.

I started watching a friend's children today. Well, more like Eric started watching them today. And I'm so freaking exhausted. The last week or so, I've been taking a nap between 1 and 5 (along with Raven), and last night I didn't get a lot of sleep because she kept waking up every 45 minutes. I couldn't do that, because I wasn't going to leave Eric alone with two boys he didn't even want *me* to babysit.

So I sat and watched them play the Wii all day. Sipping honeyed hot tea for caffine. Which did nothing but make my sleep deprived headache even worse. Now, here it is, almost 9 PM, I'm exhausted, but I'm addicted to Dinner:Impossible on the Food Network, and it's an all new episode in 10 minutes. I *have to watch*!!!

And if anyone is interested, January 24th starts the new season of Ace of Cakes (again on FN), they're doing cakes for the cast of Harry Potter. That's another show I've fallen in love with, and I will *definitely* be tuning in. LOL Ok, that is all, I'm off to lay on the couch and veg till after D:I.

Oh, one more thing. Ace of Cakes reruns, and LA Ink/Miami Ink, do not make a good thing to watch before bed. I kept having weird ass dreams last night about Kat VonD working at Charm City Cakes (AoC). And Duff getting his flaming whisk tattoo from Ami on MI. Ok, now that is all. I am so off. I'll update babyandme tomorrow. I won't have to watch the boys again until Saturday @ 5:30 AM. (*dies*)

I am so losto n how to fix my layout. LOL. it says that s1 is the one that has been deactivated, and then s2 doesn't work. anyone have any answers?