Current mood:

depressed

Feeling down
I just really honestly want to die...I'm tired of being here i'm tired of living all i ever do is fuck up  i just want to waste away. 

Im lonely, my other grandmother has only 9 months to live due to stomach cancer and cancer of the liver, my family is torn apart and my dad is fuckin idiot. 

I have money problems i can't find a job and keep trying i guess what i'm going to have to do is keep pestering them until someone gives me a job. 

I just wonder sometimes what it would be like if i was gone.  And honestly i can't wait to die so i wont be apart of this thing they call LIFE.