Léon Shaw (mightbeclever) wrote,
@ 2010-10-13 02:51:00

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Charmed private to Upper Academy

Sure, mates...it gets better. Its fuckin' shame you all didn't take a nose dive off the nearest bridge.

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[Private to Rowan]

mightbeclever
2010-10-14 02:39 am UTC (link)

The Pride Union just wants to hug people, and say it is cool to be gay. It is like some sort of fucked up badge of honor around here. You go to school in a unique environment, with a whole other set of rules. And while yes, perhaps what I did was uncalled for but how is my single statement, harsh as it might be, any more of a bullying response than those given to me?

Quinn flat out suggested I jump of a bridge myself. Yes. I can see how this union, and the student body in general, is working towards making the world a better place.

Breast cancer and AIDs research are also a touch irrelevant to this. You do not choose, in most cases, to have either. Yet you choose to make certain lifestyle choices. Just as you choose to take your life.

Heh. Everyone wants me to talk about things, I don't see the point.

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[Private to Leon]

cabotine
2010-10-14 03:02 am UTC (link)

You made the statement and posted the video and you're actually startled by responses like that?

The act of an individual is not necessarily the act of a group, you know. People get angry, hurt, frustrated, and they sometimes take it out on the person who made them feel that way.

If you think that being gay is a choice, then you need to think again and maybe do a little research. You're born gay. Just like you're born a leftie, or with webbed feet, or a good singer, or dark skinned. It's who you are, not some decision. After all you've just said, do you really think that someone would willingly choose this lifestyle? Risk suicide, ridicule, beatings, death, being disowned, estranged from people who don't understand, torture, just to live a certain way by choice? Where are you getting your information, Leon?

You are born, created, you enter this world, with your sexuality as a part of you already. It. Is. NOT. A. Choice. Anyone who tells you different is lying to you.

Talk or not, the offer is still there. All knowledge is worth having, and maybe we could learn something if we talked. Or not. The choice is yours. You know where my room is.

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	[Private to Rowan] mightbeclever 2010-10-14 03:07 am UTC (link)
	I'm not surprised, I just call it hypocritical. It is still a choice. To act on it. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

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cabotine
2010-10-14 03:16 am UTC (link)

Leon... How can you expect someone to deny who they are? It's asking someone to never love, never enjoy themselves, never be open and honest with someone else about who they are. That's like... like freezing your emotions and not letting them thaw. You can't stay sane that way. Sooner or later someone who does that is bound to explode, and that's not good at all.

How can you expect someone to lie to every single person they ever get close to? Parents? Friends? Siblings? Lovers who can never really be lovers in the truest sense? To never be with the person you truly want to be with... it would drive me mad.

Anyone who would deny themselves the opportunity to be who they are... I pity them. Truly pity them. Choice or no.

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	[Private to Rowan] mightbeclever 2010-10-14 03:21 am UTC (link)
	And what if that's not what you want? That you don't want to be gay? If you have the fucking choice, you can fix it...and no one ever has to know. Being happy with who you are? Yeah, sure. I'd rather be someone else, someone normal. That would make me happy. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

[Private to Leon]

cabotine
2010-10-14 03:36 am UTC (link)

Leon this sounds an awful lot like
Is there something you want to say? Or
You're getting a bit defensive, maybe

...are YOU

Leon, this is private between us. I would never betray a confidence, even if we aren't exactly friends, and in fact especially for that reason. I would swear to that, and even enter a magically binding contract if needed. You certainly don't need to tell me, or even respond, but I need to ask.

Do you know someone who is in this situation? Someone close to you? You?

Honestly, I'm only trying to help. Feel free to tell me to fuck off.

~~If it IS you... oh poor Leon...~~

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	[Private to Rowan] [Several hours later.] mightbeclever 2010-10-14 03:41 am UTC (link)
	yeah. me. happy? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

[Private to Leon] [6:15 AM the next morning]

cabotine
2010-10-14 04:47 am UTC (link)

~~Oh holy shit I had no idea...~~

I am so sorry for all the things I said. I really didn't know. But it doesn't make it any less true.

Leon, I think you should talk about this to someone, maybe. Again, feel free to just tell me to fuck off here.

Look, this is who you are. It is normal, for you. And for a lot of other people around the world.

The offer still stands to talk, and I would like to add that I do actually want to talk to you, if you'll let me. If you want to, of course. I know we're not entirely close, but I'm more than willing to sit down with you and talk things out.

And no, I'm not happy, Leon. If this is really your life then I feel bad for whatever it is that made things so difficult for you. No one should have to go through this, let alone by themselves. I'm here for you if you want.

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	[Private to Rowan] [7:30 AM the next morning] mightbeclever 2010-10-14 04:53 am UTC (link)
	it isn't normal. it isn't what i'm supposed to be. and there is nothing too talk about just forget i said anything i have to go to class later (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[Private to Leon] [7:32 AM] cabotine 2010-10-14 05:03 am UTC (link)
	But it... I'm sorry, Leon. I was just trying to... ...Ok then. I'm still here if... you know. Later. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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