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| I finally got the balls to call him. Wow. It was incredible. He was pretty much crying because he was so happy to hear from me. He's such a fuckin cool guy. So laid back. He's 42, a musician and training to be a firefighter. I called him and left a message saying "Hey this is Megan Goldstein, pretty sure you know who I am and if that's the case we have some catching up to do, if not... Than you might want to call me anyways." Gave him my number and blahblah, a couple hours later he called me back. Said, "Hey, daughter." and we both just started laughing. I told him I didn't even know where to start and he was saying the same thing. From the beginning it was just good vibes, we talked for about 2 hours. We moved from Berkely when I was almost 2. Norman was in my life until I was 3, he moved to Eugene so that he could be in my life and my mom was planning on having both my dads raise me. The reason for that was because of the money, Norman had none and my dad had a lot. But my mom and dad weren't right for each other. When I was 3 my Aunt told my dad that he wasn't really my father and that cut Norman out of my life. My mom took me to see him once my mom and dad got a divorce, when I was about 7. That's how I remember him, but than he told me he was my father. So he lost me. I could tell how hard it was for him to lose me. He was almost crying telling me the story. That's when we moved to Lake Oswego, and he didn't hear from me again. He said he's been trying to look for me but couldn't find me. Which makes me think, my mom always seemed to be running away from something every time we moved. I was wondering why the plans changed so drastically when I moved back to Oregon, and how she insisted I moved with her to Hawaii. So he's a really funny guy, I'm so glad I finally got to talk to him. We're going to meet up when I move up there and that should be really interesting. He wrote me a song and I can't wait to hear it. I feel so bad, he cared about me so much and my mom just took me away from him and moved away. Didn't tell him where we were going. I feel even worse, because I have no idea how my dad is going to take this. If I want a relationship with Norman at all, I can't just keep it from him. But if I tell him I think it'll really hurt his feelings. Normans a very artsy guy. He said if I ever go to Thailand he can send me in the right direction b/c he spent a while traveling over there. Also I have places to stay all around Holland and Italy. Haha All his family knows about me, and my biological grandmother really wants to see me again. They were pretty much all waiting for me. I dunno it's still kind of trippin me out. I was so happy after I talked to him though, but the last thing I want to do is hurt my dad. | ||||
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