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been working on this for a few days...
So, before you even wonder, comments are turned off on this entry. I... I can't really handle input right now. Not on this. Partially because I know many people will be very upset that I am even CONSIDERING any of this. But mainly because... I need to be a big girl and figure this out on my own.

I have a choice to make. Do I move to Arizona or do I move to Washington? I am moving. There is no doubt in my mind that I will be leaving this house soon. There is a part of me that is just screaming, begging to get out and be on my own. But I'm torn as to where I will go.

There are pros and cons to both locations. Issue #1.a - People I know. True, only person I will know in AZ is Dan. Only people I will know in Washington are Christy and Lindsey. I do not want anyone to make this seem like it is me choosing between any of you. You are all my friends. And because you are my friends, I have to also take you into consideration which could make my decision difficult.

-- Issue #1.b - Effect on the people I know. You are all in different places right now. I refuse to allow myself to be a burden and you all know that. You know I would hate myself if I felt I was imposing on you in anyway. If I move to Washington, I would be dependent on Christy and Lindsey until I was able to get a feel for things on my own and even then I would have to worry about if I were a burden based on where I would be staying. You are both tight on money and I know this. Christy, you yourself are moving in July so money will be especially tight for you. If I move to Arizona I would probably be living on my own for a while. The thing with AZ is that I could actually afford to live on my own. I wouldn't have to depend on anyone really. And that alone appeals to me a great deal...

Issue #2 - Money. Either way, I would try very hard to have a job when I move. The wonders of Blockbuster means that I can get a job transfer which is great. But when I look at the cost of living in both places, I see difficulties. In Washington, money would be extremely tight, even with a roommate. Cost of living there is almost the same as where I am now. Any money I make would all go toward bills and not much would be left over. In Arizona, I could afford to cover an apartment and utility bills on my own with a bit of money left over.

Issue #3 - School. Clark College is very appealing. Admittedly, I haven't looked into the school in Arizona, but Clark offers classes that I'm extremely interested in. Plus it would be extremely easy for me to get my GED in Washington. This part is iffy since I don't know much about the schools in AZ.

Issue #4 - Me. I'm slightly afraid to make a decision because I don't want anyone upset with me. But I also know that everyone would probably be more upset with me if I didn't do this, if I didn't take my life into my own hands. Am I scared? Slightly. But I know I can take care of myself no matter where I am. Hell, I am taking care of myself now AND two other people. My biggest fear is that, what if I can't financially manage this? But even that isn't scaring me much right now. No matter where I go, I'll have help. I will have support.

I think I'm leaning more and more toward Arizona...