jrpushing (jrpushing) wrote,
@ 2012-02-23 09:22:00

July 23, 3 am
...

...

Yeah.

IDEK.

WHY! What did I do to deserve all this? Melly, Melia, work, Leslie, and now this. Just... Sigh.

Head. Desk.

Shrug.

This has been a memorable summer.

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	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 05:25 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. ~~I thought maybe you were offering and you wanted me or cared or something.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 05:25 pm UTC (link)
	I thought you would want my help. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 05:28 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	about ten minutes later southernbabe 2013-07-24 05:34 pm UTC (link)
	[Josh] ~~Shame you didn't want my help.~~ Offer stands, though. If you want to be licked ~~by someone that actually cares and doesn't have diseases~~. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	~~Now you reply?~~ What? You want to? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	another ten minutes later southernbabe 2013-07-24 06:19 pm UTC (link)
	[Josh] If I made a list of people I want to lick it would consist of one person. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Some time later

jrpushing
2013-07-24 08:49 pm UTC (link)

[Melia]

eye rolling so hard as you lie and say me or whatever stupidity when you have a very distinct type and it's not me. you don't want me. don't be nice to me. this is the second time and the first time i overshared and vented and made you mad on your journal because here's some guy trying to act like he's special when he's not. he's not anything. he's just like any other guy. you made that quite clear. you don't want me and that's fine. whatever. i don't care.

that's a lie. i care more than i've cared about anything in my life but you just don't see me and you don't get it and you don't want to. i am going to be alone for the rest of my life because everyone is right about me. i'm worthless. and i wish that i was dead every day. because i hate this. all of it. and no one gets it. no one gets me. and no one cares. not a single person on this earth. i will be alone for the rest of my life, living in this garage, a big fat zero nothing.

and if anything else, you deserve better.

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	another ten minutes later southernbabe 2013-07-24 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	[Josh] Just you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Some time later jrpushing 2013-07-24 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	[Melia] You don't have to say that. It's sweet and nice, but I know I just piss you off and I'm like every other guy and I don't want you to feel used or hurt or anything like that. It's ok. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	~~I wasn't just saying that. I meant it. I want you.~~ You're not like every other guy, Josh. You would never make me feel that way. And you don't piss me off. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	Right... Just feels like the second time I've upset you via journals or whatever. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	I wasn't upset, Josh. Not at all. I felt like I'd CBed you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	More like outright rejection and teased (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	Rejection? I suppose I did shut her down fast... and how did I tease you? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	You were just giving me an out. Thanks (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:20 pm UTC (link)
	~~I was having a jealous fit. Because I want you to want me.~~ I wasn't. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:29 pm UTC (link)
	That's what you said ~~Here I thought you were jealous. Yeah right.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	I said that I was trying to help you. I didn't realize that you didn't want or need my help. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:46 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't say that (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:47 pm UTC (link)
	What? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	nm (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 09:58 pm UTC (link)
	What didn't you say? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	~~yeah not responding to that~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)

	Josh southernbabe 2013-07-24 10:25 pm UTC (link)
	Whatever I did, I'm sorry. I love you. ~~I won't CB again.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2013-07-24 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	It's ok. It was me I'm sure. ~~my existence~~ usually is. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Josh -

southernbabe, 2013-07-24 10:40 pm UTC

Melia -

jrpushing, 2013-07-24 11:25 pm UTC

Josh -

southernbabe, 2013-07-24 11:37 pm UTC

Melia -

jrpushing, 2013-07-25 12:03 am UTC

Josh -

southernbabe, 2013-07-25 12:10 am UTC

Melia -

jrpushing, 2013-07-25 12:25 am UTC

Re: Melia -

southernbabe, 2013-07-25 12:28 am UTC

Re: Melia -

jrpushing, 2013-07-25 12:51 am UTC

Josh -

southernbabe, 2013-07-25 10:46 am UTC

Josh -

southernbabe, 2013-07-25 02:51 pm UTC

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