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Carys
Don't you mehhhhhhhhhh at me.

Haaaa...well, I don't even know that he knows it's going to be my birthday yet. I've been meaning to tell him, but I didn't really know how without it seeming like I was trying to hint at something - like him thinking I was just telling him my birthday was coming up so he needed to get me something, or plan something.

Don't judge me, I haven't dated in a long time and I'm really really awkward about it, but GAH, I hate my awkwardness! It's like I don't know how to date anymore, because I'm always worried about what he's thinking, or if what I'm saying sounds incredibly dull or boring. I mean, we've been out more than just a couple of times, and he always seems interested, and I'm interested in him, but...

Bloody hell, I've turned into a freak. This is what happens to a woman who has been cheated on, left for a woman who was pregnant with his child, and then divorced because her husband decided he just didn't love her anymore.

I think I want a pity parade for my birthday, please and thank you. Guh.