My name is Lindsey and I'm 19 years old. This blog is to inspire me to continue making changes in my life that will make me happier, healthier, and successful; to continue to be self-motivated. I need this blogger in my life because in the past I've let the weight of the world around me snag me by the hem of my jeans and keep me down. It used to be that I kept a xanga but I outgrew it and moved onto myspace, and then from there to facebook. But I remember when I had my xanga and I don't think I was ever more in tune with myself. The thing is, I don't want everyone on facebook seeing my innermost thoughts. This blog is specifically for me and the friends who inspire me. There are several of people in my life like that, but from day one I've always been able to share with the ones who see this here.

The blog is called Giving up daisies because of something I wrote when I was about to graduate high school, talking about how I didn't want to grow up. But now, I want to.

"When I was a little girl I acted the way you'd think I'd act now. These days it's quite the opposite as I act the way you might see a little girl do.I'd much rather take a nap,or use a coloring book than go to another stupid party where everyone knows everyones story but say nothing because it's oh so obvious. I'm afraid; I admit. I do not want to grow up.Times like these I desperately wish I could fly to never land but thoughts like that are ridiculous. All I have to do is look Peter Pan to know you can turn away from responsibility but grow. It catches you anyway. I'd give anything to keep my daises if only for another year, another week,or just another day. "

One of the things I'm going to do tomorrow is head to Jack's with my camera and a movie. I plan on taking pictures all day of things I love. I'll fill this blog so full of stuff that I cherish, opening it will be like stepping into the sun after the rain you can still smell is done falling. There are a lot of 'issues' in my life but none of them are beyond being fixed. Not with the love of God, not with the love of my family, not with the love of my wonderful crazy amazing friends can any problem be too great to fix.

One of the problems that I've had for years, and I'm sure many people in my age group have is spending too much time online. Not only do I spend too much time online, but I am an addict of chat rooms. One of my resolutions for this year is to toss Teen chat aside and focus on my life. The things that matter to me. Some of the things that matter to me have a lot to do with the internet though. Communication is essential for all humans, and for me I simply can not get enough. Places like my forum and this blog are sites that I will spend at least a few hours of my day that I'm hoping to make busy.

I'll list out the things I want to eliminate or improve in my life. I've already told this to like half of you but who cares, yeah? This is for me first and foremost!

• Go to class. (I've always enjoyed school.)
  
• Do my work. (I'm also more happy doing this, but I procrastinate for days.)
  
• Get healthy and exercise (I've found I'm more happy doing both of these.)
  
• No more chat rooms (They're the main source of procrastination.)
  
• Keeping my room clean and helping out around the house (Everyone seems to be more happy in a clean space.)
• Keeping in touch with my friends (I distance myself a lot when on a downward spiral. I focus more on other things and other friends so as not to draw attention to my obvious failings.)