Current mood:

worried

Oh October. I've realized many things today.
1.) Don't panic.
2.) I don't want to turn 22.
Seriously. Ok, not too seriously. But it still sucks. Getting older sucks. Every year I have to defend my stupid sense of humor that much more.

Every week for the last month I'll say, "Tomorrow I'm going to start eating right again, I got off track." And well...I think I gained like 4 or 5 (pushing 6) pounds back. No. Those need to come off. Those plus a lot more. In a way it's awesome to see that I've lost so much of the weight I put on since school. That I can wear things that I haven't fit in since I was like 17. But then it sucks because I had to trash half the clothing I had because it's 4 sizes too big now. So I equal poor now.

I feel anxious. Always.