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[26 Apr 2008|02:56am] |
....my life is so damn difficult???
I find someone I'm crazy about and who likes me.....and we're really great together....but his friends are complete assholes and they're teasing him constantly about me being jailbait when i'm NOT...by a few months....but because he's 35....they won't leave him alone.
He's gone this weekend.
Left early this morning on a red-eye to NY. Has some work to do back there with the company he works for and he's going to catch a ball game. Mets.
His favorite team. -smirk-
I never really cared for baseball till I met him. He was gonna be a pro...but got hurt and....well....he's doing what he's doing now.
It's all right. I don't mind. I can sit through a game with one of those stupid foam fingers and drice him nuts with it...and i love wearing baseball caps...be they from a team or not xD so it's all good.
But....he's getting ready to settle down he says.
And I"m terrified.
What if it's not with me? What if I was the 'flavor of the week'? What if....
Well the "what if's" are starting to bum me out. If I lost him I don't know what I'd do. He's my whole world and I can't see anything else but me and him for the rest of my life. Yeah...I know. Sucks completely. And yeah I'm that much of a romantic....so's he!!
I dunno....I just miss him so much right now.....
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