Funny, I distinctly remember saying assholes aren't invited.

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What the FUCK Dari?! It was a JOKE!

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No, jokes are funny. That wasn't.

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You know what? I don't want to go to your pampered little princess party anyway. Why don't you go cock tease someone else and get the fuck off my journal if you're gonna act like such a self-righteous little bitch. Maybe Pitt needs his dick sucked and you can go choke on it so we don't have to hear you talk anymore.

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Wow, that's definitely going to make me want to let you come.

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I don't blame you, Dari. That was an asshole thing to say. I'm really sorry again.

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And what about the crap you said to Josh and Spence and Melia? Are you going to apologize to them, too?

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Yes. If I can figure out how.

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You can figure out how to make fun of them on a public forum but not how to apologize? Wow, you really are kind of sad.

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I just want to really apologize, like make it up to them. Not just like make a post. My posts before ended up getting bigger than I intended. And I feel like I should do something equally big to apologize. But making an I'm sorry post isn't going to have the same effect. So I'm trying to figure it out.

Maybe I'll do a Douchebag of the Week about myself.

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It would certainly be fitting.

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Yeah. But it still doesn't feel like enough.

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Maybe you should have thought of that before you acted like such a jerk.

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Dude I apologized and I'm trying to ask for your help on how to make it up to them. I assure you you don't need to bust my balls anymore for this. I realized I was wrong. Someone helped me see that what I was doing was wrong and stupid. I'm stopping. I'm sorry. Can you help me out here please, Dari?

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Do you think an apology just magically erases what you did? If you want people to believe you mean it, then just stop being a douche. Don't expect people to just instantly accept that you're sorry and be all friendly to you. You can't take back what you did. There are no words that will make what you said to Spence or Josh or especially Melia okay. If you want to stop being a jerk, then stop being a jerk, but you're nuts if you think I'm going to believe you on your say so, apology or not.

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No, I don't think an apology just randomly fixes everything, which is why I literally just said I didn't want to JUST make an apology post because Sorry isn't good enough. I know I can't take back what I did or make it ok. It's not ok. I am trying to ask you if you will help me try to figure out something nice to do for them to try to make it up to them.

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Look, some shit went down today. I realize what I did was wrong. I know I've only paid a fraction of the consequences I'm due. The stuff I said to Melia was crossing the line. It was just wrong. I get that. Had to learn THAT lesson the hard way. I want to make it up to her. I don't know how. If you have any ideas, that would be great. If you want to keep busting my balls go for it. I deserve it. But I am legitimately asking you for help here.

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I don't know if you CAN make it up to her. I honestly don't. Melia's a grudge holder and what you said was really mean. I honestly don't think there's anything you can do to fix that. You should apologize, anyway, though, because it's the right thing to do.

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K. Thanks.

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Are you trying to get yourself killed? Roberts. Wendell. Ridley.

Since you apologized, I'm going to let it slide, but I'll be kicking your ass if you talk to my girl like that again.

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Apparently. You really have no idea Jeremy. Like... Whoa. PM me if you wanna know.

Yeah, I'm really sorry. I just lashed out because of something that happened this afternoon. But yeah... Really sorry. And sorry I was an ass to both of you on my journal that one time before this, too.

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Alright. No problem.

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Dude that Roberts kid... You have no idea. He's dangerous.

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Josh? Dangerous? Yeah. He's the least dangerous person I know.

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You have no idea, man. That guy... Seriously. Someone better pressure valve him before he shows up to school with an Uzzi. Like I've been around rough guys and gotten hurt plenty of times, but Roberts? Shaking. My. Head. He totally confronted me in the parking lot and beat the ever living shit out of me with his bare hands. I'm not a small guy, but him... Damn. He fucking was standing over me with this like look in his eyes. I don't even know how to explain it. No one out here could touch him if he was like that.

Pretty sure he broke my ribs and my kidney is like bleeding or something. But the fucker didn't touch my face. Said he wanted me to walk around and look the world in the face like nothing was hurting.

He's a psychopath! WTF!

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The way you talked about Melia? I don't doubt it.

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Yeah. I know I deserved it. But holy shit man. NEVER would have thought he had it in him.

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People do crazy shit when they're protecting their loved ones.

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Ugh I'm an idiot. I'm sorry Dari. That was mean. I'm just having a really bad day and I'm really sorry for what I just said.

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You really are an idiot if you think you can just talk to people like that.

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No I know. It was stupid. I've just had a lot going on the last few weeks and like... IDK. It's just been a lot. I've realized a lot today about myself and other things. I know I can't just talk to people like that, or talk about people like that. You really can't judge someone like that because they can surprise you. There's a lot hiding beneath the surface.

I was an asshole. I get it now. I just, IDK. I got angry just now because a lot of stuff happened today and I lashed out at you. I'm really sorry.

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I'm also sorry for being a jerk to people. I don't know what's gotten into me lately. Well, I do, I just... Don't want to talk about it. Guess I thought picking on small guys would help them step up and me to feel like I was better than people. But I'm not better than anyone and some of those small guys are worth kind of a lot, I guess. Or they're like hiding something. IDK. But I shouldn't judge and underestimate people.

Sorry again.

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The only "small" guy I see around here is you. You should apologize to the people you're being a jerk to. ALL of them. Better yet, try not being a jerk begin with. There's really no excuse to talking to people like that.

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Yeah not going to be a jerk anymore. There was stuff going on, that's why I did it to begin with. Besides what I just said I mean. I just... Yeah. PM if you want details, but I won't be doing THAT again.

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