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Laura Marie Madley ([info]laurathegreat) wrote,
@ 2007-12-30 22:14:00


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Private to Justin and Melanie
What makes a person fully gay?

I've been trying to bed Amy Runcorn. It's not going well. Should I set my sights on a guy, instead?

I'm not sure if I want to
/private

Private to Justin
You know I'm bi, Justin, don't you? I mean, I've never made a secret of the fact that I like boys and girls equally. Which brings me to what I actually intended to ask - lately, I've not had as much... male attention as I could have. And the problem with that isn't that I'm not getting any male attention, it's that I don't seem to CARE that I'm not getting any male attention. I don't know if I'm making any sense, but Justin, I don't think I WANT to be fully gay.
/private

Private to those who won't spill the beans
Someone needs to throw a party or something. This slumber party seems to be over before it has begun. I've got booze for Africa, it's just sitting in my trunk, begging to be drunk...
/private

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 10:31 am UTC (link)
How the bloody fuck should I know!? Um...are you sure you warded this to the right, Justin? Because - this Justin wouldn't know exactly the inner workings of discovering whether or not you're bi or 100% faggot homosexual. Unfortunate, I know...but that's life.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 10:39 am UTC (link)
Well... I rather thought you could shag me help me figure it out. Do any of your friends fancy a shag, for instance? It's all in aid of helping me not go completely over to the lesbo side, etc etc.

Also, how many bloody Justins are there at Hogwarts? I thought you were my friend. You're the only person I trust to talk to about this. Well, you and Melanie, but she's SUCH a virgin, it doesn't bear thinking about asking her.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 10:52 am UTC (link)
Oh. Right. Well, Ernie's looking a bit stiff these days.... Hahaha.

No, honestly, I think that maybe if you're questioning that kind of thing you might want to take a step back and give it some introspection instead of acting on some random sexual impulse. I know, I know, Laura Madley taking a momentary vow of celibacy seems insane. Hell's likely to freeze over!

BUT it'd be kind of asinine to base that kind of decision on which of your partners gets you off the best. I mean, sure, it'd be fun - but if they're both not equally matched in that department ... the decision might very well be skewed. And even then if you have more of an emotional attachment to one of them...it throws things off.

Really, what I don't get is - why you're so damn worried about it all of a sudden? It's not like you commit to relationships or- It's not like it's been all too important before. I thought that was the entire point of claiming to be bisexual...in the end.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 10:56 am UTC (link)
The point is, I'm not bisexual if I don't like boys too! The point of being bisexual is the choice! If I find out that I'm not bi, but gay, do you know how limited I'll end up being? NONE of the girls in this school will sleep with me! And as you so kindly pointed out, Laura Madley taking a momentary vow of celibacy (which is what it will amount to) is about as likely as the two of us having an ice skating date in Hell.

I'm having an identity crisis, and you're not really helping. I'm sorry.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:14 am UTC (link)
THAT doesn't make ANY sense!!!

Well, I'm sorry I'm not very good at helping in this department. Apparently logic doesn't count in situations of Larua Madley's cun-- If you ask me - which you are - you're just making it hard on yourself.

If you're so concerned about it why go from one drastic end to the other when you can't even be certain about it? Enjoy he choice and don't limit yourself until you're in an environment where you can truly test your pro-lesbian wings. Or whatever you want to call it.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:14 am UTC (link)
Find me someone to shag. Pronto.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:18 am UTC (link)
Will I be getting paid for this new position? I charge by the hour you know.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:18 am UTC (link)
If you want me to pay you to shag me, then yes, I will.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:21 am UTC (link)
...You never give up do you?

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:22 am UTC (link)
...no.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:24 am UTC (link)
It's very exhausting.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:33 am UTC (link)
So really, when compared with this conversation, shagging me would be the LESS tiring option. I'm just saying.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:41 am UTC (link)
Do all you women in Hufflepuff have a chemical imbalance or somethi- I'm done with this conversation. I've got to go to Defense.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:42 am UTC (link)
Ask me later

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:42 am UTC (link)
Ask me later.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:43 am UTC (link)
Define later.

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Re: Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:44 am UTC (link)
Later = not now.

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Laura/Justin
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-30 11:45 am UTC (link)
Yes, I understand that, but how much later does Later have to be before you will BLOODY SODDING WELL SHAG ME.

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Laura/Justin
[info]condign
2007-12-30 11:47 am UTC (link)
Try again Friday.

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Mel/Laura
[info]melanie
2007-12-31 02:59 am UTC (link)
I... don't know that, Lau! How am I suppose to know that? Maybe... maybe when they don't find the opposite sex attractive? Or... Why are you asking me this!?

And I don't think the problem lies in her being a girl, but in her being... well, her.

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Mel/Laura
[info]laurathegreat
2007-12-31 10:44 am UTC (link)
You're my best friend, Mel. I was hoping you'd say something reassuring about how I can't possibly be gay. Even though I think I might be.

I'm scared. I like being bi, I like having the choice, I like having the playing field open to me. I don't want to limit myself to just girls. Girls won't sleep with me! Well, not as many of them will sleep with me, anyway.

As for Amy, she actually agreed to sleep with me. She just won't let me fix a time and place... I'm wearing her down though. It's going better than I had initially thought.

Can I ask you a serious question?

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Mel/Laura
[info]melanie
2008-01-01 01:16 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry! I just... I have no problems with your sexuality, you know that, but talking about it makes me really kind of uncomfortable. You know me.

But I don't think being gay is bad. What's the point of being bisexual if you might not even be interested in boys, anymore? And Merlin, Laura! Relationships are not all about sex. There's more to them than just that, you know?

You can. What's the matter?

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Mel/Laura
[info]laurathegreat
2008-01-02 10:05 am UTC (link)
Yeah, I know you.

But I can't help but think that maybe we're not meant to be great friends for much longer, if such a simple thing about me makes you feel weird. You should love me regardless, not in spite of my being bi. Or gay. Or whatever.

I'm not saying it's bad... I'm just saying, if I do turn out to be gay, that's half the population of Hogwarts that's out, straight away. And of the half that's left (the girls), 99% of them won't even give me the time of day as soon as it gets around that I'm gay. And it WILL get around. This is boarding school.

I don't want to die alone I don't think relationships are all about sex. I just happen to like sex. And as for the rest of the stuff that relationships are all about, I don't think there's many people out there who would like me enough to be in a relationship with me. I think there's a lot of people who maybe think that sex is all I'm good for. And I'm one of those people

It doesn't matter. because if I asked you, you'd feel even more uncomfortable. I guess I'll just stick to asking Justin for sex advice.

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