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Her fingers spread to cover her mouth as the need to project her running thoughts began to fade. Odette didn't know what she had expected him to do, to react, but that wasn't what she wanted. That wasn't--- the ramifications of her words hadn't fully set in, yet, so she stood, teary-eyed and alone on the porch. What else--- finally divulging the thoughts that had been swirling her mind had not helped her aching chest, but instead filled it with fear.

Had she said too much? Would he not understand this was about her and her own problems? A bit too late, the full understanding of his last look to her before going back inside was settling in, and it struck Odette so deeply she lost all air from her lungs. Gasping and clutching her chest, she kneeled over to help stabilize her whirling head.

He had left, he had left--- she didn't want him to leave, it couldn't end like this--- her baby, her baby, that was her baby too crying--- this wasn't right, but how else could she have gotten out all these things controlling her mind? She didn't even--- did she truly think those things? Truly, honestly believe them? A part of her wanted to immediately reject it all, but even she could not deny a small, selfish part of her would not let go.

Why why why--- Odette shook her muddled head, and took a step forward. Noah hadn't completely shut the door, but it's near way shut stature spoke volumes. Was she losing him? Mere seconds ago it had felt like he was losing her--- with a tiny, intimidated push she opened it, and as soon as Odette entered a strong, full wave of new tears took over her. She stood crying in the middle of the living room, completely unable to control herself. What was wrong with her? The familiar surroundings, thoughts and memories overwhelmed her to the point where it was too much to bare. When she heard heavy footsteps, Odette couldn't help but speak out. She had to.

"Noah," she sobbed, praying that he did not have Anna in his arms. "I don't know how to fix this," Odette wept, her whole body beginning to shake. "I love you, I love you----"