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jrpushing ([info]jrpushing) wrote in [info]themouserace,
@ 2012-01-20 18:58:00


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Who: Josh Roberts and Melly Sullivan
What: An e-mail groveling
When: Saturday morning; June 21st; Around 3am
Rating: PG-13 to be safe
Status: Incomplete



SUBJECT: Please don't delete this!

Dear Melly,

I'm sorry I'm sending you this e-mail. I have no balls.

Maybe I should call her? No, I can't do that.

Whatever, e-mail. She can reply or not

I hope you are reading this. I just wanted to talk to you about last week, but I just... I was nervous about calling you or texting you so I'm just going to get it all out here. I don't know what to say or where to start really. I'm really sorry for what happened. I'm sorry for what I did and if I hurt your feelings. I feel like I need to explain myself.

So, we've been having fun kinda off and on. And it's been fun, but it was confusing me because I didn't know like if you just wanted to mess around or if you liked me. And I like spending time with you. I thought after you went to prom with Aaron that you weren't really interested? And I was kind of jealous. IDK. So when you wanted to come over I was excited to see you. And I liked kissing you a lot. But when you grabbed my pants like that I kind of freaked out? I mean it wasn't you. I just...

I don't know how to say this without thoroughly embarrassing myself. I guess I'm just gonna put it out there and trust you. Since I think you deserve to know since I just... asked you to leave without an explanation.

I'm not like saving myself for marriage or anything, but I just don't want to do those things until I'm with someone. I don't want to just fool around. It means something to me. I think you should share that with someone you really care about, not that I don't care about you, but I mean I don't know what we are and I just don't want to be like that. I'm not that kind of guy wanting to get in someone's pants or wanting a girl to do things like that to me without... I don't know. Something. I want to be with somebody, like be serious with somebody, before I do anything like that. Does that make sense? I'm sorry if that's horribly dorky or if you don't want to talk to me anymore. I mean I would understand totally. I was kind of an ass. Ok, I was a huge ass. And you didn't deserve to be treated like that. And I'm REALLY sorry.

I hope we can still, I dunno, talk and stuff. See what happens.

Josh

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Reply Email; Saturday afternoon around 1pm
[info]mellydarling
2012-01-21 01:46 am UTC (link)
I don't want to not talk to you.

I guess you think I'm a real skank, huh

I'm not ready for I really like Aaron, too

I'm sorry I freaked you out. I didn't mean too. I just... thought we were having fun. I wasn't having fun.

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Reply Email; Saturday evening around 7pm
[info]jrpushing
2012-01-21 02:58 pm UTC (link)
At least she still wants to talk to me right? Is that what that means? She probably thinks I think she's like a slut or something. UGH WHY AM I SO DUMB?! Sigh. At least now I know all she wants is to have fun.

It's ok, I just... I don't know. I'm sorry if I upset you. I don't know why I didn't just tell you at the time. We're just having fun?! That's it?

I don't know what I thought... Not that...

I give off a just having fun vibe? Since when? IDEK

If that's what you want... That's fine. I guess I thought something else. A girl like that doesn't want a guy like me. I get it. It's cool. I know who I am and I'm ok with that, not gonna be someone else. Sucks but oh well.

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Re: Reply Email; Saturday evening around 7pm
[info]mellydarling
2012-01-22 04:24 am UTC (link)
Well, it was pretty crappy to tell me to leave

If what's what I want? One of us is confused here and I'm pretty sure it's me.

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Re: Reply Email; Saturday evening around 7pm
[info]jrpushing
2012-01-22 11:29 am UTC (link)
I don't know. I thought it was more than just having fun I guess? But if that's what you want, to just have fun, that's fine. I got scared we were moving too far too fast because I didn't want to like do it before we kinda figured this out. I just wasn't ready to have sex with you. What else were you doing trying to take my pants off like that?

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Re: Reply Email; Saturday evening around 7pm
[info]mellydarling
2012-01-23 10:12 pm UTC (link)
Well, yeah. I mean I'm only 17. I'm not looking for anything serious, you know?

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Re: Reply Email; Saturday evening around 7pm
[info]jrpushing
2012-01-24 03:32 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, I guess. It's not like I want to run off and get married, I just wanted a girlfriend. Oh well.

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