dolemecknight (dolemecknight) wrote in marvel_nextgen,
@ 2013-05-15 22:10:00

Current location:	Manhattan, NYC
Current mood:	anxious
Entry tags:	dolemeck, npc - leonard samson

First Sesssion
After his return from Spain, Dolemeck took up the advice of his cousin Derek, his adoptive parents Bob and Venus, as well as the Atlas Foundation and went to go seek some form of help. With many strings being pulled, he was able to get into a session with one of the more famous Psychiatrist in the city, perhaps even the world. There was no such thing in his time, so he felt somewhat... awkward. Really awkward.

"I do not know where to begin or even how this works." Dolemeck spoke softly, looking out the large window of the office he was in. He still had some bandages on his face, hands, and arm from his last adventure.

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dolemecknight
2013-05-16 12:13 am UTC (link)

"Nay, more like past memories." He shook his head. "The last one, I was traveling with my mentor Gawain to a small village that required our help. As Knights, it was our duty to protect the poor, the children, and the widowed. His hair was perfect as always, smug smile on his face as we rode into town. Unfortunately Lancelot beat us to the village and solved the problem. He proceeded to mock my mentor, as though I was not even there. When he turned his intentions towards me, he asked Gawain if they were allowing women to become Knights these days."

His bright green eyes looked over towards the window once more as he spoke.

"I said nothing. I did not want a war of words with Lancelot, nor any involvement with his tiff with Gawain. But Gawain... he laughed. He looked at me and laughed and then told Lancelot "Dolemeck is a finer woman than you will ever bed"."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-16 12:15 am UTC (link)
	Well. That was a new one, sort of. "...It sounds to an uninformed observer like he probably meant well by it, but how did you feel about it?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-16 12:36 am UTC (link)

"I was angered at the time. I admired Gawain, I lo- ... I trusted him." Dolemeck's face reddened some. "He and Lancelot were always rivals, enough that other matters often got ignored. In my case, I was always in the middle of the two. For close to ten years of my life, to be honest."

"I look as I did back then, androgynous as my cousin says. So I was subjected to lots of Lancelot's... cat calls I suppose you could say. I did not look "manly" enough, but nether did Gawain. He was just a beautiful man... I-I mean..."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-16 12:37 am UTC (link)
	"Just for the record, Dolemeck, I'm not going to give you any trouble for having a crush on someone." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-16 12:48 am UTC (link)

"But... I should not and cannot have those feelings towards my mentor, Sir." he looked somewhat panicked, now. "A Knight's duty was to his king, church, country, and it's people. You fought for all of that, got married to a beautiful noble or Princess if you were truly lucky, had children, and that was it. If I had a crush on my mentor... I would have been taken to the torture chamber and then killed for such an ungodly thing! It was just... wrong."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-16 12:51 am UTC (link)
	"Are you still feeling bothered by how nervous you were then? Because you realize, no one at the moment is interested in torturing or executing you." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-16 01:00 am UTC (link)

"I was scared, not nervous." Dolemeck slumped some in the plush chair he sat in by Doc Samson's side. "I was scared Lancelot would do something, say something to my King and take me away from Gawain or have me killed. And for what? because the two disliked one and other? Being a Knight, you knew you were expendable. But how you went out is what mattered. You either died with honor, or you died shamed and shunned. In my case, it was the latter."

Dolemeck's tall frame looked odd with how he was slumped in that chair. His eyes were downcast to his feet, now.

"Before I was sent to limbo, I had not proclaimed my love to anyone. Never bedded anyone, never kissed anyone, not so much as held hands with anyone. I was with King Arthur's daughter, the Princess Legiah... but it was more or less a mutual agreement. She did not wish to marry her suitor, and I was concerned about my appearance to the other Knights and my King. We were friendly enough that such an agreement would have worked out for the two of us."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-16 01:08 am UTC (link)
	"I think I understand the nature of the arrangement. ...And?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-16 01:14 am UTC (link)

"And it never happened. I was framed for forcing myself on a woman, betrayed by my eldest brother, stripped of my nobility and knighthood, shamed before the Kingdom, disowned by my own family, spared my life by the Queen to go find what it was women wanted, and then forced to marry an old hag that turned out to be Morgan Le Fay in disguise. before I could reveal she and my brother had a hand in this whole plot against me and the kingdom, I was turned into a demon and banished itno limbo for over a thousand years." A bitter look came across his face. "I... I had an alibi that night, but I refused to use it. I did not wish to drag that person down with me, nor did I wish them to be punished. I fell on my sword so to speak."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-16 10:35 am UTC (link)
	Leonard listens. Yeah, that's certainly new. "Obviously, there's a lot of phenomena here that are outside my area of expertise. And we'll revisit these parts of the discussion later. But I have a question: how do you feel today?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-16 03:58 pm UTC (link)

"I feel very unhappy, today. Depressed I believe is the proper word." He tried to sit more proper like in his chair, now. "I still see no point in me being alive. This is not my time, and everyone I loved from my time has long since past. Yes, my adoptive parents in this time love me, along with my cousins Derek and Mac. But it does not feel right. How can they love someone like me?"

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-17 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	"Could you clarify that, please? What do you think is the logical obstacle for their feelings?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-17 11:23 pm UTC (link)

"I am unsure. I am unsure if the obstacle for their feelings would be my dependent nature, their fear I will continue to hurt myself in some way, or..." Dolemeck let off a small sigh. "Doctor, may I ask you something? These feelings I have towards... towards other men. Are they okay to have? I know you said I would not be executed for them or tortured in this day and age, but I am still scared to have them. I feel like there is something wrong with me for having them. Something that would justify my desire to no longer be a part of this world."

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-20 03:35 am UTC (link)
	"Short answer? No, it's not wrong to have feelings about other men. But I think you're missing the point of my previous question. Before we return to it, how serious would you say your desire to leave this world is?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dolemecknight 2013-05-20 03:38 am UTC (link)
	"It is quite strong." Dolemeck spoke honestly, as Knights were never permitted to lie about anything. "I do not know how I would leave this world, but I do feel a strong desire not to be part of it anymore." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	nextgen_parent 2013-05-21 07:33 am UTC (link)
	"Ah." A pause. "Do you resent what your mother did, Dolemeck? Making you fully cognizant of life and decency and such again, and all?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

dolemecknight
2013-05-21 08:00 am UTC (link)

"No, I hold no resentment towards my adoptive Mother." He shook his head before putting his hands in his own hair. "She... she had no clue I had a life before limbo. My adoptive parents thought I was a demon who escaped limbo and nothing more. How could they have known... I was something more? So why would I resent her? Why would I resent them?"

Dolemeck finally let his hands drop from his hair, his eyes suddenly turning red, and his black fingernails looking sharper suddenly. His voice began to sound more demonic, now.

"No, my only resentment is towards Morgan Le Fay! She turned me into this... this creature! She stole my life, everything I had! And for what?! So her son could take the throne and she could gain more power?! She robbed me of my humanity, my memories for over a thousand years! Now, now I am stuck here, in a time that still makes no sense to me! I feel lonely, I feel hurt my adoptive parents and cousin fear me, and I feel angry that so much was stolen from me! What had I done to deserve this!?" He stood up, trying to calm himself down.

"I... am sorry for that, Doctor." His eyes slowly reverted back to their bright green color, and his nails returned to normal. Well... normal meaning not sharp, but still black in color.

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	nextgen_parent 2013-05-31 04:24 am UTC (link)
	Dr. Samson remains calm throughout. "It's all right, but it's best to work toward the point where you're able able to deal with these things without reliving them." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dolemecknight 2013-05-31 05:15 am UTC (link)
	Dolemeck slowly nodded his head in agreement, before speaking. "What is it you suggest I do, Doctor?" (Reply to this)(Parent)

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