David Roberts (smallestbear) wrote in marvel_nextgen,
@ 2011-02-05 13:33:00

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Burning the midnight oil
David normally didn't fuss about anything. He was a very stable kid. Nothing got to him and he didn't have any problems.

That was at least how he acted. But he did have problems. Sometimes he had nightmares. He had no idea what he should do about this thing with Rachel, Starbridge, and Torn Ear. He also had become aware that his little secret was becoming more of an issue. It kind of pissed him off.

He just wanted to be a normal guy. Like that was ever going to happen though. No matter how much Misha and Rose wanted things to be normal for him David was just as much aware that things just wouldn't ever be that way.

Which might be why he was in one of the studies right now late at night. Sleep was not happening when he could feel that restless streak taking hold. Especially when he was trying to work things out in his head and fighting to calm his nerves.

Yeah, not happening. David's zen master like state of mind was just not returning right now. Joy. It was Uncle Hank's chili, he swears to God.

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	smallestbear 2011-02-06 01:05 am UTC (link)
	He gives her a look. Her English kind of sucks. "Just feeling restless. Probably Uncle Hank's chili. I get like this sometimes." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 01:28 am UTC (link)
	Chris looks concerned. "Anything on your mind you'd like to talk about?" She sorts through some badges she's getting ready to stitch on. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	smallestbear 2011-02-06 01:31 am UTC (link)
	"Yes.... No." He shakes his head as he shoots up from the chair pacing. "I think it's a guy thing." Well it's partly a guy thing. Just in a weird way. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 01:37 am UTC (link)
	Chris blinks, then gives him a lopsided smirk as he paces. Boys. "I've got bro credentials. I can call up Corey if you need references. Lay it on me. You'll feel better." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	smallestbear 2011-02-06 01:41 am UTC (link)
	Well boys are stupid. "I think I like guys." He is serious about this. And obviously confused as hell about it. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 01:43 am UTC (link)
	Chris tilts her head back, a little surprised, but she smiles. "Go on." Beat. "And I really mean that. Continue. I don't mean 'go on' like 'you're joking'." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

smallestbear
2011-02-06 01:47 am UTC (link)

"Well." He thinks about it and shrugs.

"Some guys seem uh.... Interesting. Kind of like how I dig Rachel. But it's not like I feel like I should go out of my way for them or anything." He gives a puzzled and confused shrug. "They're interesting in a way I know isn't strictly friendship."

He isn't about to say his captain has stood at attention but Chris should get the idea. And it's obvious David is uncomfortable with this. He doesn't normally talk a whole lot.

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	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 01:52 am UTC (link)
	"So you're attracted to them, or has it just been a personality thing so far? In person or just ones you've seen on tv or online?" Chris tries to take it semi-clinically. Something occurs to her. "You know I go both ways, right?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

smallestbear
2011-02-06 01:57 am UTC (link)

He blinks at her. "I always had the impression you preferred girls. It never really bothered me because well, I have a huge 'whatever' attitude towards what people do or want. It doesn't really register as something I should directly concern myself with since people should do what they want."

That was also a lot to say. He simply shrugs. "Some guys on TV I'm aware I find.... visually pleasing. But I'm more of a personality guy. I like people who are interesting more than people I'd hit on because they look good to me."

He lets that sink in for a moment. "Does that make sense?"

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	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 02:14 am UTC (link)
	"So do you think about hitting on guys a lot?" Chris asks. "Can you see yourself being physical with another one?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

smallestbear
2011-02-06 02:19 am UTC (link)

"Not anyone here. And... semi-frequently." He isn't about to go into details about his 'personal' moments.

"But maybe. I've certainly given it serious thought when I'm sure I can have my thoughts to myself. That's a very private thing I'm not willing to share. Especially with the .... Weird thing Rachel has with Starbridge, myself, and Torn Ear. I know for certain Rachel interests me more than a guy would currently.... And I suppose I'm afraid that my so called manhood would come into question if I came out."

After all, look at Misha and his father. It would certainly startle people.

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	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 02:21 am UTC (link)
	Chris gives him a firm but caring gaze. "David." She walks over and puts a hand on his shoulder. "I want you to listen to me. Whoever you are interested in has nothing to do with how manly you are. Despite what sitcoms might tell you, a person is a lot more than their sexuality." She smiles at him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

smallestbear
2011-02-06 02:29 am UTC (link)

Thankfully David is the one Logan who is easy to get back to earth. He blinks and relaxes.

"Still. This isn't... Easy. Everyone seems to want me to be the normal guy. Rose and Misha the most but--"He shakes his head. "Normal ain't in the cards for me. The fact my sexuality seems to be as flexible as I am, 'cause nothing actually phases me just makes it glaringly obvious to me."

He doesn't get why they think 'normal' would be safe anyways.

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	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 02:32 am UTC (link)
	"Eh..." Chris shrugs. "What's 'normal' anyway?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	smallestbear 2011-02-06 02:33 am UTC (link)
	He stares at her. "Cheese in Wisconsin." He says it in his normal deadpan tone. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 02:52 am UTC (link)
	Chris stares right back. For about a minute. Then she cracks a smile and laughs. She reaches out to ruffle his hair. "You're alright, kiddo." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	smallestbear 2011-02-06 03:32 am UTC (link)
	He smirks lightly. "Of course I am. I'm a guy. We don't do the whole brooding and dragging our feet thing." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pym_kitten 2011-02-06 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	"Guys totally brood. They have natural bonuses to brooding." She smirks. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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