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Uchiha Madara ([info]kakumei) wrote in [info]itai,
@ 2009-09-28 00:59:00


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I need... some advice.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:00 am UTC (link)
No. It's a... bonus. They do it for me, so I want to return. But better than I am now.

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:09 am UTC (link)
I can understand where you are coming from at least but for the practical, sorry.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:09 am UTC (link)
You've never done it?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:16 am UTC (link)
Not yet. It's planned. Very soon. It's complicated.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:17 am UTC (link)
It's always complicated. On a... man or woman?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:21 am UTC (link)
Man. I haven't even with a woman either so, it would be my first time overall.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:22 am UTC (link)
Why haven't you?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:25 am UTC (link)
I tried it before and as soon as I came close I just... it was queasy. Felt sick like physically sick. She didn't talk to me for a week after that. Running to the toilet throwing up wasn't the best turn on ever.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:30 am UTC (link)
Whoa. Was it nasty or...?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:46 am UTC (link)
I don't know if there was a problem or if its meant to be like that but... one bad experience will influence how you think about everything.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:51 am UTC (link)
You're not going to throw up on this new guy, are you? I thought I had it bad.

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 07:58 am UTC (link)
I hope not. I wanted to do this for him. Okay I was drunk when I said it but it is still what I want. It just seems like he doesn't really get anything out of it when we are together.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 07:59 am UTC (link)
He doesn't get anything out of it? You not good at all?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 08:11 am UTC (link)
He used to remind me that I was terrible... a lot.

... I think about myself too much. And as I said, it was complicated. It was never meant to be anything this personal.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 08:12 am UTC (link)
It wasn't meant to be personal... were you using him?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 08:19 am UTC (link)
In a way I was. No, I was. When I look back at it, I feel like shit about it but then I don't because I woke up and realized that I cared about him.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 08:27 am UTC (link)
That's what makes you want to do things like that, huh? That's what made me do it the first time... When I realized I cared about him. I wanted to give back what he's always done for me. I know it's something simple but...

It's complicated.

You seem to understand, though.

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 08:40 am UTC (link)
How long as you two know each other? Was it something recent or long history? I can only assume it's long as feelings like this don't pop up with most new couples.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 08:43 am UTC (link)
How long we've been together... is complicated. We're over five years, how's that. We had a long history prior.

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 08:48 am UTC (link)
Have you always cared for them? Or was it something that progressed?

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 08:50 am UTC (link)
It progressed, though I always cared for him.

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 08:58 am UTC (link)
I can only wish you the best with it. If you feel strongly for him and if he feels the same in return, then he should understand if you are reserved about it.

The only thing I can suggest it talk to him, not only before but during, ask if its okay, what he might like and not. Active feedback would be the best to discovering what he would like.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 08:59 am UTC (link)
What about you? Why did you use him originally?

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[info]devilswalknstik
2009-09-28 09:06 am UTC (link)
To hurt him. Make him feel used. I don't even know if he felt that at all anyway so I don't even if I had succeeded.

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[info]kakumei
2009-09-28 09:09 am UTC (link)
You wanted to hurt him?

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