Cerdian (violettidemage) wrote in dc_nextgen,
@ 2011-03-24 23:20:00

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What do I do with this life left to me...?
Cerdian escorts his mother home to Poseidonis in silence, wanting to make sure that his father doesn't suffer in ignorance.

Upon their arrival, however, they are met by several soldiers who draw their weapons and do not look overjoyed to see them.

"What is the meaning of this? " Cerdian asks.

"Say nothing else, Cerdian. We are calling for Lord Garth right now."

Lord Garth? When did /that/ happen?

"Please tell my father that my mother and I are here. He will want to see us." Cerdian says, as something beyond the soldier catches his eye.

Poseidonis was in ruins.

"What happened to the city?" Cerdian asks, staring on in shock.

"You and Princess Caitria happened." the lead soldier says.

Cerdian's only expression is shock.

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dc_parent
2011-03-27 03:23 am UTC (link)

Dolphin had noticed a change in her son in the past few days that he had been home. While yes, she loved getting the chance to mother him, he normally chose to be more independent...and she had never seen him so eager to help around the house, and when he wasn't in Poseidonis helping out, he was at home, helping either her or Garth as much as he could.

Something was wrong. She could feel it.

So, she decided to find out what it was. She went to his room and opened the door, peeking her head in.

"Cerdian? Can I come in, sweetheart?"

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violettidemage
2011-03-27 03:35 am UTC (link)

"Hi, Mother!" Cerdian says happily, looking over his photo album. He'd been removing several of the pictures from it, placing them in a stack nearby.

He pauses in his task and gets up to hug her, holding her very tight.

"So, I was thinking we could go exploring later and I could keep those no-good manta rays from bothering you. Oh, sharks, too." he smirks.

He always did that when he was younger.

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	dc_parent 2011-03-27 03:45 am UTC (link)
	Dolphin returned the hug. "That's sounds like a wonderful idea, Cerdian." She peaked around him to see who was in the pictures with him that he was removing. "Is there a reason you're taking out all of the pictures of you and Lian, Cerdian?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

violettidemage
2011-03-27 03:58 am UTC (link)

"Oh, I'm, um, just starting a new album with those pictures." Cerdian lies.

He already had a shell nearby to put the pictures in. When he felt up to it, he was going to take those pictures to Lian and give them back as a sign of the end of their friendship.

She was a different person now, with different needs. There was no place for him in her life and the sooner he accepted that, the better off they would both be.

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	dc_parent 2011-03-27 04:00 am UTC (link)
	"You never were a very good liar, Cerdian." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	violettidemage 2011-03-27 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Cerdian sighs. He has no idea how she can still do that after all these years. "It's nothing, Mother." he says quietly. "Perhaps I just realized that you were right about some things, after all." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-03-27 04:22 am UTC (link)
	"And what were things was I right about, Cerdian?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

violettidemage
2011-03-27 04:43 am UTC (link)

"That Lian and I were not meant to be. That she thrives on danger and risk-taking, like her father.

That she and I are of two different worlds, and those worlds will always keep us apart, in spite of what would bring us together." Cerdian says, listing off all the things his mother had ever said about Lian at one time or another.

"I should find a proper Atlantean woman and court her. I want what you and Father have, Mother, someday. But...I will not find what I seek on the surface." he says.

"I think it is time to devote myself to my people and my power." Cerdian says.

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dc_parent
2011-03-27 04:54 am UTC (link)

There was a long pause.

"Is that really what you want, Cerdian? An Atlantean woman, one who is quiet and does not care to go exploring, even if it means going into shark caves? Someone who prefers the 'safe' option over taking a path more adventurous?"

Dolphin placed a hand on his cheek. "Yes, I may have said those things about her at one point or another. But it was not because I didn't like her. It was because, in my own selfish heart, I wished that you would stay my little boy forever. But all mothers wish that. We are not always so good at letting go."

"Let me ask you something, Cerdian...do you love her as much as you always have?"

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violettidemage
2011-03-27 05:01 am UTC (link)

"The safe path has never hurt anyone, Mother. I could learn to love someone who did not enjoy the things I do, I am sure." Cerdian says, though his tone doesn't match his words.

He looked down at the floor, because his mother's questions were insightful, as always. She knew how to get right to the point with him.

"What I feel doesn't /matter/, Mother. She fell in love with another man and she is having his children. There is nothing I can do about that." Cerdian says.

"I love her, Mother, but her heart belongs to someone else. I bet you and Father never had this problem. You two were made for each other." Cerdian says.

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	dc_parent 2011-03-27 05:10 am UTC (link)
	"Everyone couple has their problems," Dolphin said. "Your father and I have our flaws, but we have learned to work together to overcome them. And that is what truly matters. It's being there to love a person for both their strengths and weaknesses that makes love worthwhile in the end." She paused. "What about this other man? Does he love her?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	violettidemage 2011-03-27 05:27 am UTC (link)
	"The other man is a monster, Mother. He kills people." Cerdian says. Cerdian pauses, because this next part may upset his mother, but she has to know. "Mother, the father of Lian's children is the one responsible for...what happened to me." he says. "I don't know how to feel about that." he says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-03-27 03:23 pm UTC (link)
	Dolphin was silent for a long moment. "Do you..do you think he might have killed you to keep Lian from you?" She was fighting the urge to demand his name, and where she could find him so she could kill him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

violettidemage
2011-03-27 05:04 pm UTC (link)

"I'm certain of it, Mother. He brought his entire clan of killers to Star City to kidnap Lian and kill anyone who kept him from her. I fought them all, Mother.

It was just me against so many of them and...I was winning. Father would have been proud. But the Outsiders were too far away, being distracted by Damien's people. He came after Lian, and...I couldn't stop him. I volunteered to watch her myself, because I knew she would try to help and get herself hurt if no one else did." Cerdian tells her.

"And in the end, I failed anyway. She still loves him and she's having his children. There is no place for me on the surface, so I should accept this and move on with my life." he says.

He just doesn't know how.

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	dc_parent 2011-03-27 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	"The only way to know for certain if there is no place for you in her life is to talk to her yourself, Cerdian." Dolphin said. "You have been through many things together." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	violettidemage 2011-03-27 10:31 pm UTC (link)
	"Yes, Mother, I know. I planned to do so when there was less trouble here." he says. Cerdian shifts uneasily, looking up at his mother again. "Am I a coward, Mother?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-03-27 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	"You died for love, Cerdian," Dolphin said. "There is no cowardice in that." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

violettidemage
2011-03-28 01:15 am UTC (link)

"Lian never even knew I loved her, Mother. Not in all the years we've known each other. What good is it when the person you love doesn't even know you're alive when you're alive?" Cerdian asks.

He takes a deep breath and steels himself.

"I will end my friendship with Lian and cut my ties to the surface, Mother. It's the only way I'll be able to get on with my life." he says, resignation coloring his tone.

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	dc_parent 2011-03-28 01:25 am UTC (link)
	"Perhaps it is time to tell her, Cerdian," Dolphin said. "After you died...your father talked to Roy. Apparently, Lian took your death very hard. She wouldn't even leave her room for over a week after you died. Her feelings for this man might have changed, after watching you die in front of her at his hand." (Reply to this)(Parent)

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