From: mylollipop	Date: June 5th, 2011 01:57 am (UTC)		(Link)

"You're sweet, you know that?" She said, chewing on her lip even as she considered everything he had said. He didn't really know her that well, did he? She wasn't so easily convinced that he right, it'd been too long since someone had bothered to treat her like she could think for herself, let alone was a human. But Sam didn't have any way to know that, did he?

"I guess so," she said, though, agreeing with him instead of arguing. Somethings wouldn't ever change, she realized. "But you know, I totally would...if you ever wanted to do it, you know?"

Maybe that was all he'd been waiting to hear. "I mean....you know, most guys wanna."

	From: samtheman	Date: June 5th, 2011 02:40 am (UTC)		(Link)

He laughed. "Yeah, so they say," still, there was something about this that was unsettling. He had seen a little bit of her home life and that had been enough to make him worry.

"That's not the point though babe," he said giving her a little squeeze. "It's not that I don't want to. I just... I want it to be right... like I don't want to rush it and I don't want you to feel obligated, you know?"

"It's your choice too."

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 6th, 2011 02:14 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Her choice too? She didn't know what to say to that, choosing to pick at her s'more a little more instead. He really was far more sweet than she knew what to do with sometimes.

"Okay," she said, before looking up at him and smiling weakly. "It isn't cos, like, you don't like the way I look right?" And though she was sure she knew his answer already, a part of her wondered if he would be lying. How long had her father lied to her mother about that same thing? What if Sam didn't like her nose, or secretly hated that she was so tall? How could she fix that?

"I know it's my choice, and stuff. But I just wanna make you happy. That's what a girl's supposed to do, make her man happy, you know?"

	From: samtheman	Date: June 6th, 2011 05:28 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Are you crazy?" he asked laughing a little. "You're gorgeous, any guy would be nuts to say otherwise," he bent to kiss her noise. "That's not all that matters though. You matter, your feelings matter."

"And I want you to be happy. I want to do good by you. We work together you know, to make each other happy 'cause we're in this together, right?"

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 7th, 2011 05:09 am (UTC)		(Link)

She laughed when he kissed, her nose, smiling brightly despite herself. "Stop," she said mid giggle. "I love you." She said softly, looking up at him for a moment, before she blushed at feeling so silly. He was probably going to just laugh at her for that, wasn't he?

Ducking her head down, she just nodded as she pushed some hair up and behind her ear. "Together, yep. We are team Happy, which is way cooler than like...Team Edward or Jacob."

	From: samtheman	Date: June 7th, 2011 02:41 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sam was a little taken back when she dropped the infamous ilu bomb, the shock never registered in his face though, he only smiled warmly, his cheeks turning a deep shade of crimson. He could feel his stomach turning to butterflies as the words formed on his lips. "I love you too," he said just as softly.

Then he was shaking his head and grinning from ear to ear. "I like it, Team Happy, though I gotta admit I have no idea what a team Jacob and a team Edward are."

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 8th, 2011 09:53 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"No way do you not know what Twilight is," she said suddenly, trying not to feel too excited that Sam hadn't gotten up and run away the moment the 'L' word was dropped. Instead he said it back! And maybe it was stupid how happy and giddy that made her feel, but there it was. That floaty feeling.

"Like, Edward is this vampire guy, but like way hotter than real vampires. And this girl like falls for him. But there is like this other guy who is a werewolf, Jacob. And Jacobs like mad hot too, and she kinda dates him for a while. So he and Edward get all buff man fighting over her. It is so wickedly cheesy."

	From: samtheman	Date: June 8th, 2011 11:00 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"What the... what?" his face scrunched up in distaste as she explained what Twilight was. The whole thing sounded a bit far fetched.

"Why would anyone fall for a vampire or a werewolf?" he shuddered. "They're animals, they'll... they'll tear you apart. I just... I don't get it," he shook his head. Then it came over him, maybe he shouldn't have been taking it too seriously. It was a fictional story, right? Make-believe. No one was actually in love with werewolves.

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 12th, 2011 02:51 am (UTC)		(Link)

"It is a movie and a bunch of books, silly. Muggles don't know how grrr arrrg and slimy and way too hairy for taste the real stuff are." She laughed a little, nudging him with her elbow lightly. He seemed to be really focused on the werewolf stuff, but then again- Defense Against the Dark Arts had like a whole chapter on them last year. And it was way creepy. She couldn't blame him.

"In the book, and stuff, they are like these Indian guys, but like not the kind that are from India. But like the kind that are from here? Like...the Indians that didn't leave to go to India? Anyway, they are like secretly werewolves, and they are all human protects and stuff. And the Cullens, the vampires? They sparkle in the sunlight, and totally don't kill people. So they are good vampires!"

	From: samtheman	Date: June 12th, 2011 12:04 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Oh, right," he forced a smile. "It's fake. Of course it's fake," he winced a little, making a face for having taken it too seriously.

"Native American," he offered with a little grin. "Wait, the werewolves protect people and the vampires are... good? Fucking sparkles? What drugs was this author on when she wrote this book?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.

"I don't understand the muggle fascination with vampires and werewolves. They're just... they're dangerous. They shouldn't try to glorify them," he shook his head. He really couldn't stop himself from taking it seriously. It was too close to his heart.

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 12th, 2011 11:41 pm (UTC)		(Link)

She wasn't the brightest, she knew that. However, this time around she definitely was picking up on strange vibes. "Hey, you okay?" She asked, turning to face him a little more.

"Idk what she was on. She said she was More-man, so maybe she's like one of those guys that became a girl or something. Idk what a more-man." She shrugged a little, reaching up to brush some of Sam's hair back behind his ear. "And it is kinda nice, you know? Like to think there could be good werewolves or vampires. Otherwise they are just really creepy and scary."

But he was right, she guessed. Glorifying them was probably dumb, but they honestly didn't get to see them. Not real ones, at least. Even wizards rarely had runs in. "You can't blame them, I guess. They don't know any better."

	From: samtheman	Date: June 13th, 2011 02:52 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah," he lied, his eyes searching the ground. He knew his scars were well hid but he felt like they were itching. Absently, he rubbed the spot on his chest and closed his eyes. "I'm fine, it's nothing."

He grinned at her explanation though. "Mormon?" he asked. "They're like... a religious group from Utah babe." He closed his eyes when she pushed his hair behind his ears and smiled.

"Well... they are creepy and scary and you have to be very careful.," he said, his voice was gentle, far away. "If you see one just... just..." he shook his head. "What am I talking about?" he dropped his head into his hands.

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 13th, 2011 01:21 pm (UTC)		(Link)

She really didn't know what was going on, and vaguely regretted ever bringing up the subject of Twilight. Everyone always had mixed reactions, but she was pretty sure this was the first sad one she'd ever gotten. For the life of her, she couldn't even figure out what about the book made everything sad!

Or was he sad because she was talking about some weird woman, and how hot the vampire guy and the werewolf guy were in the movie? Maybe he was jealous, though why she didn't even know. It wasn't like she was in LA right there, running off to snag herself a date.

"What's wrong?" She asked softly, combing her fingers through his hair a little more as she reached out to touch his hand with her free one. "I don't, like, think I'm ever gonna run off with some movie star, or werewolf. And vampires are all pale and gross."

Maybe that would make him feel better? She hoped so, at least, seeing as she really didn't know what else to do.

	From: samtheman	Date: June 13th, 2011 03:38 pm (UTC)		(Link)

It was stupid for him to be acting so silly, he knew it was just fake so why was he taking it so hard? Not everything about werewolves had to do with his family, with his life. He shivered a little in the darkness, the corners of his mouth twitching a little upward at her reassurances. "I know you aint like that," he said quietly.

"I just..." he moved his hands from his face, taking and squeezing Ginger's. He forced a smile and then looked down at their hands as if he could find the answer scribbled on the back of his hand. He took a deep breath and briefly closed his eyes. "Werewolf talk gets me a little... upset because... two summers ago when we were camping my whole family got attacked by one.

With his free hand he lifted the front of his shirt and his hoodie, showing the four long scars that dragged across his chest from his left shoulder to just below his right pectoral. "There are five more on my back just like these," he said quietly.

Pulling his shirt down he sighed. "It slashed us all up with it's claws, bit my brother Felix. He died the next morning," he wiped at his face feeling the wetness from a tear. "Instead of coming together, the whole thing tore us apart. Now my parents are separated and they can barely sit in the same room together for more than twenty minutes without fighting it out."

"There's this... stupid, senseless, guilty weight resting right here," he said putting his hand over his chest. "At any moment I feel like it's just going to break something inside," he shook his head. "I'm sorry, you don't need me to dump all this on you. I just... I guess I didn't want to keep it from you anymore and there are only two other people outside the family that really know what happened."

He looked into the fire for a while, not sure what to say next.

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 13th, 2011 11:31 pm (UTC)		(Link)

To say she was without words would have been an understatement. She felt as if she'd walked into a biker bar and yelled something like 'Yay Valley' and everyone was staring at her. What sort of girlfriend was she?

"Oh, baby..." she said softly, sliding her arm around her neck to hug him as she pursed her lips. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."

It was the only think she could think to say as she held on to him. She squeezed his hand, nuzzling the side of his head gently. "It wasn't your fault, you know? And you don't have to keep it all locked in. You've nothing to apologize for."

	From: samtheman	Date: June 14th, 2011 03:09 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sam hugged her back as best as he could, giving her a little squeeze. He rested his head against hers and sat in the silence for a little while. He tried to let what she said sink in, he tried to think of the right thing to say.

He had been told a thousand times over by his family, by AB, and now by Ginger, that it wasn't his fault. Yet there it was, the guilt, still weighing on him like a one ton weight. He nuzzled her back and kissed the side of her head. "Thanks Ginge," he said finally breaking the silence.

"It's good to talk about it," he said quietly. His two best friends had moved in the past few months and the only other person on campus he trusted with these things with Marina. It had always been a fragile, secret thing and now it was out there for another person to know.

"It was kinda silly for me to get upset about Twilight though," he grinned giving her a silly little look. He had to bounce back to his regular self, it was for his own sanity. There was only so much brooding he was capable of regardless of the severity of the situation.

	From: mylollipop	Date: June 14th, 2011 11:03 pm (UTC)		(Link)

She smiled at him, holding on to him a little longer as he spoke. She really didn't know what to say to him, and felt terrible that she was happy to see the conversation turn back away from something so serious. She didn't do serious. At least, not very well.

"No worries, baby." She said softly, before laughing a little at his face. At least he was feeling silly. That was something she could handle very well. "Yep, totally. We're team Happy. Not team upset. That team seems pretty lame-o to me."