Mackenzie practically felt her heart stop when Tatum referred to her as "babe". It made her heart ache more then it already was, it just felt so right. She had been called "babe" many times before by different girls she had slept with, but none of them made her feel like this. It was a beautiful pain, because she knew that Tatum would probably never call her that, especially after correcting herself.

She started crying harder when she felt the girl wrap her blanket around her shoulders. It smelled like Tatum, the only way that Tatum could smell. It was just overwhelming her with the utter reality of the situation. She didn't think she could bare loosing the redhead, because who would she honestly have left after that besides Hunter?

"Did I ever tell you that when my parents fought when I was younger, Kia used to hide me in the bathroom under a blanket?" She asked, her breathing ragged as she drew the blanket tighter around her. She wasn't even sure what this had to do with anything but the word vomit wouldn't stop. "She used to make me feel important, like talk to me all the time, and make me play games with her until they stopped yelling at each other."

She drew in another few labored breaths, the tears just weren't stopping now. She had never told anyone these things before, and now with recent events she just couldn't hold it all in anymore. She would probably explode if she had to for one more moment.

"When dad left, Kia dragged me into the bathroom like she always did. Except that time she was crying, I couldn't get her to stop," She sniffed again, louder than the last time. God, what a mess this was. She was surely never going to be able to live with herself after this little episode. "I didn't get it at the time but I figured it was my job to take care of everyone since dad was gone. Kia and my mom just cried and cried, and someone had to take care of them right?"

She was gesticulating wildly with her hands now, she could see her fingers shaking as she held them out in question. She wiped across her face again with her sleeve, and took a shaky breath to continue.

"I was so angry the day that mom introduced us to Craig, I thought, who the fuck is this guy to think he can take my dad's place? I might have been horrible at taking care of Kate and Kia, since I guess it really turned out Kia took care of us all, but like, I just thought it was until he came back. You know? He just left me in charge until he came home, he used to do that." She was pretty much sobbing hysterically now, all pride had gone out the window.

"I just...who's going to be there if Craig is really gone? I don't actually hate him you know, he makes Kate so happy. And I don't have to worry about her anymore. And Kia gets to go live her life now instead of watching out for us." She was rambling now, running her hands through her hair. God she had to end this now, she had to make it all make sense. Otherwise she was pretty sure that Tatum was going to think she was crazy.

"And I just can't stand to loose you," She said out of the blue. She knew she wasn't making sense anymore, her mind was racing a mile a minute. She just couldn't organize her thought process. "Because if I loose you Tatum, I just wont have anyone anymore."