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To: Jenny (jenniferparry@cci.edu)
From: Sera (seraphimdonnellyrousseau@cci.edu)
Date: December 13th, 2010, 9:46AM
Subject: RE:RE:No Subject
I know I've told you this before but you're so lucky to have a sister like Ella. You should have seen her, it was like you were barely even on the floor and she was there to help. Or at least it seemed that quick, I was just trying not to panic and she was just so serious and calm (lol it was almost weird seeing her like that)
You know you don't have to tell her if you're not ready? I didn't even tell Tatum until I thought I really knew, and she had already gone through it on her own. I knew she wouldn't judge or care but still I had to make sure that I was okay with it first before I could tell anyone. You're obviously still confused about everything, which is why i assume you choose to tell me about Quinn? So don't rush things. If you're just trying to figure everything out right now, just let yourself figure it out, it's kind of something you need to do on your own (as much as I'd like to say I wanna help). I know getting things off your chest feels good, but telling people, even Ella probably won't help all that much (especially if she's kinda wierd about it.. not that she will be but you know what I mean)
I don't think you're a mess, believe me that's the last thing I think. I know what you're going through, I remember the first time I kissed a girl, I don't even remember how it happened, it just did and afterward I felt ashamed and strange and I didn't want to tell anyone, for a long time (not even you or Rowan or Meka, nobody), for almost a year. But overtime I felt less strange and more confident. I don't it's hard to explain, I just knew. I could picture myself kissing other girls and doing more and when I thought about it it just seemed natural, no different then with a boy. Sorry that was really rambled and probably didn't help at all, it's just hard to explain in words. I hope that made some kind of sense though, if not sorry again and we'll definitely talk more when we see each other. I'll definitely come there if she won't let you leave that's no problem as long as I get to see you.
Love,
Sera
PS: You better be able to go back to school after break, I need my favorite study buddy:) and glee will hopefully be back on tooXDD
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To: Sera (seraphimdonnellyrousseau@cci.edu)
From: Jenny (jenniferparry@cci.edu)
Date: December 13th, 2010, 10:19 AM
Subject: RE:No Subject
Unfortunately, I guess I've given her a lot of times to practice.. lol.. she was always a lot more mature than me, even if people don't believe it. I don't know if I'd be strong enough to handle things like her, if our roles were ever reversed, it's kind of weird..
I think not having words for it about sums it all up. It's just.. like, I know it's normal, lots of people are doing it, and people are even beginning to accept it. I'm not ashamed, it's not even like that, I just don't.. know if it's what I pictured for me. When I was a kid, I always wanted to play house, I wanted to get married, and I've always wanted someone to be with forever, and I guess I just..
I don't know. Never considered the fact that I don't care if it's a boyfriend or not? I don't know how else to explain it. I'm like, still waking up to this realization that I just want love, and I don't care about all of the details. I'm just still sort of.. adjusting. I guess.
That's stupid, sorry.
- Jen
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