To: Sera (seraphimdonnellyrousseau@cci.edu)
From: Jenny (jenniferparry@cci.edu)
Date: December 12th, 2010, 11:22PM
Subject: RE:No Subject

Don't feel bad, hun. There isn't anything anybody can really do. Even Ella can't tell well enough to catch me or do anything until it's already happening.. not that she's needed to for a long time. I guess I'm lucky she never forgot all the proper steps, or then I might actually be in trouble. It wouldn't be the first time she's practically saved my life while I'm down for the count.

I need her to relax now. I'm pretty lucky that most of my shopping was done while we were in school, because I have a feeling she isn't going to let me out of bed to do anymore of it.. I don't even know if she's gunna let me go back to class in two weeks without a fight. I'm hoping she'll calm down, but I won't hold my breath on it.

I didn't know how to tell her. I still don't, but I guess I'll have to eventually.. maybe I can convince her to do a trade off for whatever she seems to be bottling up on me. I dunno. It's like, private in a different way, it's like.. I don't think she wouldn't accept me, I just don't know if she'd understand. Which is probably wrong, because Ella is the most understanding person I know. Being unable to relate is probably a better way to word it. I knew I could tell you because you obviously could relate. And I felt I owed you after I.. acted like a total asshole to you like that. Which, for the hundredth time, I am sorry for, I just..

It's like I want it, but I don't. I want it, but I don't. I'm fine, but I'm not. And none of it matters, but it all does. I'm just kind of a mess, and you.. really, really don't want to get involved. Trust me, okay?

I definitely think we should get together. If I can convince mum to even let me go, I could come over. Or you could come here, but she might make you wear a decontamination suit or something.

Funny, Meka and I were just talking about some of the morons we go to school with too. Great minds think alike?

- Love Jen